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Says 82 – Getting organized – Generation Gap

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2012 Sept 02 Sunday, I never bought any food on Saturday as I hadn’t been able to talk to Nancy or Frank as to where I could put my stuff in the refrigerator, as well as where I was going to store my non perishable food stuff. I talked to Nancy this morning after they got up around noon and she gave me some cupboard and fridge space, enough to keep my basics. Other foodstuff and some of my utensils I can keep in a cupboard in my room.

2012 Sept 07 Friday It’s kind of weird as the two young people that also room here usually eat when and what Frank and Nancy eat. No one eats breakfast and supper isn’t until 8:30 – 9:00 at night. It’s like a communal kitchen, but where it’s Nancy (depending on what shift she works) or Frank that does the cooking, and Frank doesn’t get home until after 8:30pm, and the young ones just wait until supper is ready. The young guy make spaghetti for himself the other day, but he didn’t just make one of two servings, he used the whole package, enough for 10 people, and then he stuffed the pot in the fridge as leftover’s. He then eats at it during the day for days, trying to get rid of it as no one else wants it. He told me I could help myself, but I already had my spaghetti feed a day before he made his, so I wasn’t interested.

I’ve also noticed that the two young people seem lost. They both have jobs, but they are in their own little world that doesn’t include the basics of living and caring for themselves. It’s just like they are large toddlers. They leave their bedroom door open at times and I can’t help but notice how littered and messy the rooms are. When they use the bathroom, whatever falls on the counter or floor, stays there, same goes for the kitchen and even the patio. Maybe it’s just the three generation gap at work, but there seems to be this hopelessness or indifference that is reflected, not only by their rooms, but in their general attitude. They look clean and as normal as present teens can be when they go out, as that is the public perception that they want to portray, but that is not what they are really like. The young guy had his girlfriend (mother figure) over the other day and she cleaned up his room, but a few hours after she left, he had things on the floor again.

The other part of the generation gap is with Frank and Nancy as they are in their later 40’s and are consumed with their jobs, Nancy working a rotating three shift schedule, mornings, afternoons and nights, while Frank works 8 am to 8 pm, 7 days a week. Both of them have very little time for each other, or to do things around the house, other than prepare meals and clean up after the toddlers. Nancy also tries to be this cool mother figure to them, cleaning up after them (once a week) and driving them to the store to get beer, cigarettes, or maybe some food. I know the young ones are also smoking weed, but they’re not toking up in the house or yard. They are what they are, and I just do my own thing.

I don’t know what these young kids would do if no one cleaned up after them or prepared their meals and did their laundry. They are like a hoarder or litterbug that would eventually be living in and eating their own excrement. I’m not saying that one needs to be a clean freak, BUT!….

Ahhh! I just got it… It’s all about choice. People are going to be toddlers and litterbugs as long as there are people that are willing to mother them, to pick up after them and take care of them. It’s all about power and control and of course, denial, free Will and choice.

Nancy hooked up my internet, (25 character password). Apparently, the TV and movies are also available via the computer but that hasn’t been activated as yet. I don’t rally miss TV….

Says 77 – Re-focusing on eBook 2 – final edit

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2012 Aug 07 The past few days I have begun proof reading and re-editing eBook 2 – My Journey – Three Levels of Healing. The present website version is still v1.9 but I’m now working on v4.3. In this edit, I’m mainly looking for and punctuation errors but I’m re-phrasing, and adding or deleting the odd word or words from the last edit. It’s amazing, as no matter how many times I edit it, there is always something that I missed. I wrote the material, so while my eyes scan what is written, I know what I said or wanted to say in my Mind. I’ve been using Natural Reader a free text to speech program to do my recent editing and that too is now becoming somewhat ineffective as I’ve listened to my material several times. I’m using Natural reader mainly to listen to how my words flows, while also using my eyes to spot what I think are punctuation errors.

It would be nice to have another person that has never read my work, do an edit, but I can’t afford a professional one so I’ll just have to do the best I can. So what it it’s not grammatically “perfect,” according to some English language rules. It’s interesting that even though society puts emphasis on good grammar and spelling, we can still read and understand what the writer meant if the spelling is terrible.. Here is an internet example. You can still read bad spelling http://www.matchdoctor.com/blog_41652/you_can_still_read_bad_spelling.html

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno’t mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it

I’m thinking that when I finish eBook 2 and Book 3, that I’ll also redo my website and have it so that if anyone wants my published eBooks, (1, 2, and 3) that they will have to email me and I will email it to them. I’ll have to wait and see what happens when I go to get the books published in print through a POD publisher, and how the eBooks will be handled. I’m not looking at making money (or at least, as little as possible) off the printed books, and would certainly still like to have the eBooks distributed for free.

Says 75 – Evolution not Revolution

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In going through my stuff, I had picked up an old business card from a Doctor I visited when I was out West. I noticed the name of the Health care centre (clinic) that he worked out of at the top of the card, but what caught my attention wasn’t the name, but the caption underneath it that read,

“A Revolution in Health Care”

I thought about it for a few seconds and realized that any REVOLUTION doesn’t really change anything as a revolution by definition is simply a rotation of 360 degrees, a complete circle or cycle ending back at the same point. While it’s true that people, places and things can change with each revolution, what doesn’t change are the basic thoughts, ideas, imprints, programs and beliefs that the people have. When people feel they are being controlled and over-powered, they seek to overthrow those they feel are in a position of power so that they can become the ones in power and in control. So in reality there is only a change in form.

Later I thought that what we need is not a revolution, to overthrow the powers to be, but an evolution, a letting go of all our old imprints, programs and beliefs that will then enable us to create what we really desire in a totally new way, from a new blueprint. Humanity needs to awaken to a new awareness of themselves and all that is around them. To see themselves for who they really are, and not what they think and believe they are and what society presently projects they should be or try to be. They need to become aware that they are a Spiritual Being having a physical experience, and not just a physical Body coping as best they can with the life they are experiencing, and waiting for death to become a spiritual Being and have a better life. Humanities thinking is all backwards.

Says 63 – Another new tenant moves in and out next door

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2012 July 08 A man about my age moved in to the room across the hall five days ago and moved out today. He was also fed up with the BS he is getting from owners living below. Like the woman before him, he complained about the heat and that he wasn’t allowed to keep his door open. He was also chastised for drinking a beer outside on the balcony.

Actually I had bought a 6-pack of Corona the day before as it was hot and humid and it reminded me of Mexico and I remembered how good a corona tasted . When he came home from work, I asked him if he would like a cool one. He said he’d love one and invited me to join him on his balcony for some “fresh” air. We were sitting on the small deck off his room, quietly chatting and sipping our beer, when both owners came up and knocked on his door. He closed the balcony door and went to see them. I could hear them talking, but I couldn’t really make out what was being said.

Later, he came back out and told me that they didn’t want any drinking from bottles on the deck, and that if he had a beer, he was to have it in a glass. They never said anything to me cause if they had, I would have asked them if drinking pop from a bottle was ok, and if they said yes, I would have pulled out my Dad’s root beer that looks like a dark beer bottle…

He emailed me later saying that when he went downstairs to get some of his money back, as he had paid for a month, they refused. He said that when he promised to take them to small claims court and to also see various government agencies as to the conditions, they quickly reversed themselves and gave him back 3 weeks rent, saying that they were glad to get rid of a trouble maker and a whiner.

Says 62 – Another run in with a government agency bureaucrat

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2012 July 06, Today I went to the local ServiceOntario centre the Motor Vehicle agent to get my address changed on my drivers’ license and motor vehicle registration. I got the first woman of three behind the counter and everything went smooth until she finished and asked me if I also wanted to change the address on my OHIP (Health card). I said sure; and as she entered the data into the computer she made some strange faces and told me that my OHIP Health Insurance had been cancelled and that I needed to get a new card to get it reinstated. I said I was confused as I knew they were changing over to new photo ID cards, but not that they were cancelling the old ones. I also said that I have used it the past few months and no one said anything.

Anyway, I didn’t want to be without any health insurance, so I went home and got my birth certificate and SIN card (to PROVE my identity) and went back to the agency and waited in line. As luck would have it, I didn’t get the same woman I went to earlier. Instead I got the second one, the same nasty ignorant woman that I had before when I had a problem with getting my vehicle license for my Honda. Says 57 But I was open to see what would happen this time so I gave her my documents and she filled out the data on her computer and then asked me to sign a form she handed me. She hassled me on my signature going out of the lines and I finally, after two failed attempts, scribbled a miniature signature BETWEEN THE LINES IN SMALL RECTANGULAR BOX. That made her happy, even though it didn’t look like my signature. When all was finished, I said, I’ll like to have my card back so that….. “ But before I even finished, she sarcastically stated that I couldn’t get it back. I was angry at her cutting me off and at her tone of voice. I said calmly. “You never even let me finish what I was saying before you rudely and ignorantly cut me off… Can you listen to what I have to say? She again interrupted and stated belligerently,” You can’t have your card back.”

I wasn’t going to let this die, so now I raised my voice so that everyone in the office could hear me and again repeated myself, “Can I finish what I was saying and will you listen?” But this time, before she could open her mouth, I continued, “I have some important information taped to the back of the card regarding certain drugs that I am allergic to. I want to copy them down so that I can transfer it to the new card when I get it so that if I happen to be in an accident and unconscious and someone goes through my wallet and finds my health card, they will also see what drugs NOT to give me.”

She stared coldly at me and again stated that she can’t return the card. Just then, the third woman in the office chimed in and asked this brain dead bureaucrat if there was something written on the card. The woman replied, yes, there is. The third woman then said, “Why don’t you just give him a photo copy of the health card with his notes on it?” She looked stunned. She then slowly turned, rolled off her stool, and waddled to the photocopier, made a copy, returned to her station and shoved the copy at me. I took it and said in a sarcastic tone, “Now was that so hard?” As I turned to leave, I noticed that the first woman that had previously served me was giving me a dirty look. I glared back at her but didn’t say anything as I knew, she knew what I was thinking and she quickly lowered her head and turned back to her computer monitor. Some people waiting in line smiled as I made my way past them, while others looked pissed off. I smiled at them all.

Says 60 – Canada Day – Another religion – worshiping a corporation

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July 1, I was thinking about Canada Day (July 1) and how it’s like another religion where people worship this fictitious entity , this corporation called Canada. Canada was created on paper to serve as a format to unite people in commonality, within a given land area and also as a form of having control (governing) over both the land and the people. All the people that agree to the corporate mandate and desire to be a subject under its illusionary status of power are giving their power away. Not that they are giving it away to the corporation, but to the elected officials , politicians and bureaucrats that have been selected though the so-called democratic process, to run this corporation and govern the people with rules and laws. While I use this USA cartoon as an example of government, Canada operates the same way. For that matter, any country be it a monarchy, republic, dictatorship or communist, also work in a similar manner.

Canada is not a living Being or entity and a as a government, it has no power and is not really a problem. The problem is with the people in the government those that hold office and are in a position of power to dictate the hidden agenda of those people behind the scenes that are in control that are the real problem. So when people are all ga-ga over being a Canadian, they really have no idea what they are all so revved up and proud about.

I happened to be following up on a picture posted on facebook and came across this one by George Carin, that pretty well says the same thing.

Says 46 – Oxygen sensor issues with my car

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May 2 Tuesday Last Friday, my mother had been over for a visit and I drove her home. When I left her apartment building, I drove over a speed bump and my 1999 Toyota Tercel hit bottom. A of couple blocks later, I noticed my engine light was on, and my first thought was that something jiggled loose when I hit the bump, even though I didn’t hit it very hard. When I got home, I called the local Toyota dealer, Taylor Motor Sales in Regina, Sask. and made arrangements to take it in on Monday.

I took it in on Monday morning and told them the story of when the light came on. They checked it out and told me that an oxygen sensor was faulty and that they would have to order it. While he told me that, he also presented me with an invoice for $137.50.

I asked the service rep, “Did he check to see if it was a loose connection.”
He said, “No, that they would check it when they put a new one in and that they had to order one.”
I asked, “How does the mechanic know if it’s not just a loose wire and not a faulty sensor if he never physically checked it? I told you I went over a bump and the engine light came on shortly after that.”
His reply was, “If it’s just a loose wire, he’ll see it when he replaces the oxygen sensor.”

I got off my chair and pointing to the invoice he had just given me, and with a sarcastic tone to my voice, I asked. “Why would I pay $556.60 for an oxygen sensor, plus labor, plus taxes, for a part that I don’t need, if the problem is just a loose wire. And that’s not counting the $137.50 that you’re charging me today for this report. I’ve had an oxygen sensor replaced by a Toyota dealer before and it was just over $200.00 in total. This is ridiculous.”

Anyway, we got into a little argument and I tossed my debit card on his desk. As he was processing it, I exclaimed in a voice that was loud enough so that all five of the service reps and their customers would hear, as well as others in the open area, that I would never come back for service and neither would I recommend anyone else to do so. He then tossed the card back at me in an act of defiance and I caught it before it slid off the desk. I asked him why he was angry; he wasn’t the one that was being gouged? He didn’t say anything, but glared at me.

The next day I went to see my sister’s mechanic and arranged for them to do the work. He quoted me $210.00, parts, labor and taxes. I also decided to call Toyota Canada and let them know that I was not happy with their dealer. I gave them all the details, including invoice number, service representative, etc.. That’s just bullshit, and as long as car dealers that can get away with gouging, they will.

Says 40 – Lost hopes, dreams, desires and innocence

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2012 April 9 Lost hopes, dreams and desires are directly related to experiences where you had the opportunity to fulfill those dreams and desires, but you were either denied having the experience, or you denied it yourself. As much as you now hope and long for another opportunity to re-live the experience as you would like to do things differently, it’s also futile, as that moment has passed and things have changed. It’s is impossible to even pretend and deny that the original experience never happened. Even knowing that you have a second chance, doesn’t make it the original experience, as you already have that imprint, program and belief, that it is a lost hope, dream and desire, that was put in place from the original denied experience.

With that realization comes the feelings of heartbreak, as well as anger and rage at yourself for being held back, or for holding yourself back. While these feelings and emotions are quick to surface, what is harder to reach and also the most important is your denied terror, and why you felt your terror was correct at that time, in denying the experience.

What brought this topic up was my remembering a few experiences in my early adolescence. While I was curious about girls and wanted to talk with them and be friends, I was also afraid that I was bad or that others would think that I was bad. The reason behind those thoughts was due in part to my religious upbringing and my mother, and secondly was the result of being bullied and not wanting to say or do anything that would give others a reason to attack me. This was my terror that I denied, and as such, I denied any experiences where I had the desire to do so.
Now, decades later, I wonder what would have happened if? If I had done that, if I had said that, and hundreds of other if’s. Guilt and shame were also involved in keeping me from the experiences I was curious about and desired. This is also associated with lost innocence, innocence that I denied, and now, lost youth, as I’m now decades older, and I can’t relive my youth….or at least, that is my present belief.

It’s interesting that I added that as an afterthought as that thought came from nowhere. So maybe there is a way to heal all this and to reclaim lost innocence and fulfill my lost hopes, dreams and desires.

As I’m writing this, I’m feeling over whelmed at all that I have lost. I have very few memories of my childhood, adolescence, teen and even adult life. Not like some people I know that can remember minute details and even the exact date. What I do remember mostly are things associated with lost hopes, dreams and desires. I’m realizing that I was either living in the past, heartbroken and angry over what I had experienced, or I was in terror of what was awaiting me in the future. As such, I had very little of my conscious presence fully in the present moment.

Says 38 – Quit two Facebook groups

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2012 April 05, Well today I officially removed myself from two facebook groups that I have been in for a few years. They were the Right Use of Will, (RUOW) group and Spirit group. I had unsubscribed from them before to take a breather, but now I’ve make a clean cut, which included taking back any of my power and essence that I gave them or that they took from me, as well as giving back any power and essence that I took from them or they gave to me..

The group was originally an “open” group, meaning that anyone could join, but when the founder stepped down, new people took over and the group was changed to a “closed” group, meaning admittance by invitation only. Since then the place has been getting darker and darker, and unless you were in agreement and kowtowed with those that had a like minded following, you were either attacked or ostracized if you disagreed with them. While there are a few people there that I felt have intent to heal, that unfortunately is not the common consensus of the group. As such, I felt that it was no longer my right place, and for that reason, I left.

It’s too bad that the name of the group is Right Use of Will, as I feel what is happening there now is totally the opposite of what RUOW represents. I’ve never really focused on promoting my facebook group, “The Heart Centre,“ as I felt the others were already established and seemed to be what I was also trying to create, but now, I don’t know, I’ll just play it by ear and see what happens.

Says 37 – The Amero – It’s getting closer

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Canada, USA, and Mexico Meeting

The “Three Amigos.” Although there were some semi harsh words exchanged, it’s all media hype, like the WWF, as off stage, they are all bosom buddies.

It was almost a year ago that the unholy triad had a meeting. You can read about it on my old Opera Blog.. Post 800 The Amero – Something evil this way comes..

The Amero (Standard North American currency) is also tied in to a super highway that would link Mexico an Canada though the USA..

Bush Administration Quietly Plans NAFTA Super Highway

Says 36 – PENTAGON BRIEFING ON REMOVING “The God Gene”

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The video is about vaccinating people with a respiratory flu like virus that will attack certain parts of the brain in people that have strong emotional expression. The virus will dramatically suppress or eliminate any emotional based religious fundamentalism tendencies. The proposal has been to develop the virus with the prime intent of specifically targeting Islamic fundamentalists, with the goal of turning so-called Middle East fanatics into normal people..

Says 34 – Letting go of the Old world and creating a new World

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2012 March 30 6:40 am I awoke and was thinking of all the things that are wrong in this world and I began to write a list.

Corrupt government, federal, provincial, and municipal
Religious beliefs and conflict
The wars and military spending
Pharmaceutical drugs and medical care
High gas, food, electrical and housing prices
High CATV, satellite, telephone, cell phone and internet prices
GMO foods and animals
Polluted land, water and air
Chemtrails and government cover-up
Big brother watching you
And the list goes on and on.

I then though, this is way too much to try to fix and that the only way we are going to change things is to let go of it and let it self destruct and then we’ll build a brand new world to rise out of the ashes like the fabled Phoenix. By self-destruct, I don’t mean that the World (Earth) should be destroyed, but that the SYSTEMS that are presently in a position of power be destroyed. When they are gone, along with those that support that system; those that remain can then begin the process of creating a New World with a new blue print of how reality can be when denials are ended.

Says 29 – 2012 Three Days and Nights of Darkness

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I just watched a YouTube video and was reminded of a message that I got way back in 1995. This picture on the left reminds me of what I saw as the beginning or dawn of a New World. You will know what I mean after you watch the first part of the Video. Also, there are other videos that relate to it.

Humm?… The YouTube video seems to have been removed, but luckily I was able to download a copy.

Like I said, it’s interesting that when I viewed this video I was reminded of a similar message that I got back in 1995, about the three days of total darkness that was to mark the beginning of the new age and that was to last for 17 years before the next shift would occur.. Like I said, this was back in 1995 and I never really gave it more thought or related it to 2012, in fact I had forgotten about it until I saw this video…

It seems coincidental that 17 years after 1995 brings us to the year 2012 and back then, I hadn’t even heard of the Mayan calendar, and the galactic alignment that science now knows is about to happen. Now I’m wondering if I may have misinterpreted my original message. Maybe instead of lasting for 17 years, it was to be within 17 years, which would make it coincide with 2012. Things that make me say.. Hummmmmm?

From what I remember of the message I got, we, I mean our solar system will be passing through what is called the “Null Zone.” It’s like what we experience when we drive on the highway and come upon dense fog, or a blinding rain or snow storm, that completely blocks our visibility for a period of time until it moves past us. This will be similar, but even more dramatic, in that like she said, what we will experience is total darkness, no electricity, no communication, everything will be shut down for three days and three nights. The only thing that will give us light is fire

I also got that the three days and nights will give people a lot of time (without modern physical distractions) to reflect on their lives (Soul Searching). I didn’t get anything on us or Earth ascending per say, but I did get that a lot of people are going to die, and many will be by choice. Those that don’t die will come away with a new lease on life, so to speak. Not to say that all that remain will be for love and life, but their power base will have shifted and they will not be, or stay in the position of power they once had.

I’ll try to dig up my original message from my journals. I guess it’s right time for this message to be brought to the masses… Now if it manifests, that question will only be answered when the time comes.

Says 27 – The cause of all illness and aging is denial

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2012 March 19, The present issues I’m working on is healing my Body and manifesting my desires and that includes dealing with illness and aging that are manifested by the Body. While there are countless forms of disease, there is only one underlying cause, and that is denial. Denial, the denied energy (reversed polarity) from all parts of the self is what causes the disease and aging. Although it’s not obvious, it’s the unseen role of denial that is the root of our beliefs and judgments, and I’ve found that one of the biggest limitations and judgments on our Being is our social and personal definitions of who and what we are. If you make a list of all your negative “I am” faults, you will have a record of all your limiting beliefs and judgments. Some of my limiting “I am” beliefs and judgments are:

I am getting old because:
I’m not as strong as I once was
I’m not as energetic as I once was
I am getting white hair
I am losing my hearing
I am losing my eyesight
I am feeling pain in my bones
I am feeling pain in my muscles

While I have some knowledge, insights and understandings into the issues in my life from my past emotional healing experiences, I still don’t have the understandings I need to solve this current illness and aging issue with my Body. I have yet to apply my knowledge and experience it in a real life situation, in the “now” or present moment, to see if what I think I know, really works.

The cause of all pain and suffering is denial.

Says 26 – The power of labels and our core “I am” beliefs

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I’m in a Facebook group where I’ve been having an exchange with a man that admits he is gay. As he defended his belief of his gender preference, I realized that he was no different than a person saying they were an alcoholic or a drug addict. While the man said, “I am gay” he totally missed the fact that he is a Spiritual Being having a physical experience which happens to be being in a sexual relationship with a man, which is labeled by society as the person being gay. Being gay is what he is experiencing; it is not what he is… BIG difference.

I also realized that any mental, emotional or physical affliction is the same as an addiction in that both carry the denied underlying causes related to their physical experiences. If people allow themselves to be identified by the LABELES that their Doctor, or society puts on them, then they will have resigned themselves to be defined by those limiting and crippling beliefs. They will unconsciously will live their lives in pain and misery until such time that they choose to let go of their label belief and decide to find the hidden cause, the unseen role of denial underpinning their experience.

Our fears are connected to our “I AM” core beliefs that limit us from being who we really are. Our fears are not bad or evil, but they have their origins rooted in real life traumatic unloving experiences were we fragmented a piece of our Essence out of our Being. While we are mentally unaware of the fragments that have been denied, we are aware of their presence by their magnetic draw to be accepted, yet we still deny them, or rather, deny dealing with the original cause that created the fragmentation and resultant programs and beliefs. It’s a double blind situation as we are unaware of what we are doing and what we need to do to resolve and heal the situation and therefore we ignorantly believe our denials as being the truth and the truth as being our denials.

The same goes for other beliefs like, I am not free, I am poor, homeless, unhappy, depressed, etc. All these are limiting “I AM” beliefs and as such, are locked into the CORE of our psyche, our BEING. Until they are cleared and released, it’s impossible to become our true “I AM” presence as these beliefs, and the denied feelings and emotions behind the experiences that led to these beliefs, are overriding our true essence and power.

Affirmations like, “I am happy, I am abundant. I am free,” etc., are just a forms of denial and role-playing that only serve to deepen the belief. As an example, simply saying “I am happy” when one is actually feeling sad is in blatant denial of our true feelings and emotions.