Says 480 – People don’t understand the “they” in a position of power

Posted on 2021/10/05 by johnrieger

Near the end of the video when David talks about low vibration, what he misses is what causes ones vibration to become lower. The cause is the DENIAL and suppression of true feelings and emotions in the moment they are experienced, NOT by the psychopath, but by the ones that the psychopath is seeking to control. What was wanting to move, to vibrate with love, is stopped (denied) and so the overall vibration of that Essence is slowed or lowered. The denied energy is what the psychopath feeds on… End denials and stop the food supply.

“THEY” use FEAR as “their” favourite weapon to CONTROL the minds of their subjects. Once they control the mind, they control the body and is why you’re seeing so many people OBEYING and COMPLYING to do what they are told with this covid scam-demic. They are AFRAID to face the truth of their fear, and so by denying their fear, they give their power away and become slaves to the SYSTEM that “they”, the psychopaths, control.

David talks of “they” as being the psychopaths in a position of power and mentions the HARE Psychotherapy checklist

Says 464 – Words – The power to free or enslave.

Posted on 2021/04/27 by johnrieger

The unseen power of WORDS, and how easily PROGRAMMED most of humanity has become to blindly OBEY the dictates of the few that have taken the position of RULER and controller.

Becoming aware of your “I AM” statements is critical to freeing yourself from the matrix of the WORDS that hold you in your present denial based reality. The video below should give you some “food for thought” on how powerful words are.

Says 429 – You must trust and believe people – NOT

Posted on 2020/12/14 by johnrieger

I know that many people believe this meme to be a truth, but when you really look at it, you begin to see the flaws in that logic and ideal.

Firstly, you must trust and believe in yourself, or all else is meaningless; because if you don’t, then like the meme states, you put your trust in others to save you or whatever you feel it is that you can’t do but they can.

If you have ANY doubts about what the other person’s intent is by what they say or do, or doesn’t say or do, you need to ask direct questions to clear the air. Also, don’t just go by what the person says or does, FEEL if what they are saying and doing feels genuine and loving. If not, state what you feel and ask more direct questions.

By asking direct questions, you’ll uncover their true intent, Quite often they are trying to control or manipulate you in some way through the use of lies, omission, avoidance and denial, and these are often coupled with intimidation, withdrawal, or the use of guilt or shame to get you to believe and trust them and give them your power by way of your denials of self

I have a saying… “if in doubt, give yourself the benefit of the doubt.” They might not like it, but your purpose in life is not to please and make others happy at the expense of yourself.

Says 412 – Speaking your truth in a reality of bullshit.

Posted on 2020/08/18 by johnrieger

Internet image. not image of health food store.

Today I went to the health food store and they have signs on the door indicating that you must wear a mask and must use the hand sanitizers to be able to go into the store. I walked in and a man in his 40’s wearing a mask came over to me told me I have to wear masks and sanitize my hands. I stated that I can’t wear a mask because I can’t breathe and that I’m allergic to hand sanitizers.

He saw the list I had in my hand and said that he would pick up the products I wanted and that I should wait here.
I said, “No I want to shop myself. I don’t have the product names but I know what they look like.”
He said, “You can’t shop here without a mask and sanitizing your hands.”
I said, “Fine, you have a choice. You can either let me shop without a mask and using hand sanitizers, or I walk out and take my business elsewhere”

I couldn’t see his mouth but his eyes blinked a couple times, then he nodded his head indicating he was accepting my terms and waived his right arm to usher me into the store. As I walked to the shelves he said that I should use this counter, (pointing) when I wanted to check out.

I did my shopping, paid my bill with cash and briefly chatted with the girl that was not wearing a mask and not behind any plastic shield of any kind. I got the impression that she’s not a happy camper working where she is regarding all the covid-19 BS.

It’s bad enough that the government, medical and media bullshit us.. but that business also try the same shit. I spoke my truth and stood my ground. He was in denial and knew it.. An example of how truth (love) prevails over lies, omission, avoidance and denials.

Says 395 – Convid-19 and the untold story..

Posted on 2020/03/12 by johnrieger

As I read this article the penny dropped.. Sure the convid-19 virus is real with a “listed” death rate of ~2% if …. IF… you have underlying medical conditions. This is also the case even if a person got a cold or flu that further compromised their immune system. All the WORLD governments and the media’s FEAR propaganda is working; as most people “believe” they are in mortal danger if they catch the convid-19 virus.. Keyword above is WORLD…

When I read <quote> two groups announced major developments in COVID-19 vaccine developments. <end quote> the penny dropped… What better way for WORLD governments to entice people to get a VACCINATION than to them to believe it’s to prevent them from getting the DEADLY convid-19 virus that has been labeled by the WHO (WORLD HEALTH ORGANIZATION) as a GLOBAL PANDEMIC.. Keyword again.. WORLD…

My “gut” feeling is that the so-called “vaccine” has a more sinister application… If not immediately, then in the times to come… Call me a conspiracy theorist or whatever, but this is a NWO operation… WORLD GOVERNMENT

Another thought is that if the convid-19 was so SERIOUS, why would the government and medical propaganda encourage people to self-isolate… quarantine themselves and HEAL their themselves without any so-called medical intervention except for the normal things people do when they get a cold or the flu… And when they feel better, (98 % do recover) they go about their regular routine.. Yet another psychological tactic to get people to believe and trust the government and the medical corporation….. for FUTURE events.

This article just adds to my story I just posted..

Says 365 – The Mark of the Beast 666

Posted on 2018/10/06 by johnrieger

It’s interesting the things that pop up on my Facebook time line. Although I have studied the bible and other religions, I’m not a follower of organized religion, in this case, Christianity and so I’m not drawn to bible thumpers and the Church or Jesus saves sales pitch. But this talk interested me and I was curious as to what he had to say. At around the 2:20 min mark he states that the Mark of the Beast is not a physical thing, but rather, it’s the LOVE and TRUTH (NOT religion – my comment) that you carry in your Heart. While those with the Mark of the Beast have unloving INTENT and heartlessness, aka DENIAL.

It makes a lot of sense and was a concept I never considered before. Everyone already has the Mark of the Beast as they live their lives in various forms of denial. Everyone also has choice; whether to carry on living in denial, or, to end ones denials and live in truth. You don’t need to be a Christian or follow any other religion to have a loving Heart. There are part-truths in all religions and one must gleam the wheat from the chaff to feel the meaning of the WORD. Let those that have eyes to see and ears to hear know the truth.

Here is the link to his podcast – The Mark of the Beast 666 Part 1 with Doug Batchelor

Says 355 – Monopoly – Cheaters edition

Posted on 2018/08/18 by johnrieger

WTF is wrong with society that this is even allowed. What message is it giving kids that cheating is fine… or that it’s ONLY A GAME… Of course in order to cheat, you have to have the mental INTENT to deceive and manipulate others so that you can accomplish your plan and win. You have to steal, lie, deny and cover up your immoral acts, and when confronted, act as if you are the innocent victim, not responsible for any wrong doing. To bully, intimidate and use any immoral tactic to gain the advantage over your opponent and win the game. Of course others can accuse you of cheating when you aren’t, in order to hide the fact that they are cheating, just to throw you off.

Sure, this is only a game, but it also sets up the program that it’s OK to do all these things as it’s only a game. They begin to lie and deny to their parents, friends and peers, and soon, they have stripped themselves of any sense of morality. Sad to say, this game is a reflection of what is going on in the world today.. When are people going to wake up?

Here is a link to their website. https://www.thisisinsider.com/monopoly-cheaters-edition-2018-1

Says 325 – Gaslighting

Posted on 2018/03/02 by johnrieger

It’s interesting how these meme’s pop up on my Facebook time line. Gaslighting ties in with my previous post on Cognitive Dissonance, except there’s a reversal with a more assertive approach to get you to deny your truth and accept their version.

Says 317 – When another person makes you suffer

Posted on 2018/02/08 by johnrieger

So what is wrong with this advice?

What’s wrong is that it states that self-sacrifice is love. While there is a part-truth in that the person attacking you may be hurt and suffering, that’s no reason to allow them to control and manipulate you. There is no need to punish them, only to stand your ground and make it clear that you do not accept their abuse and will not tolerate it. Open a dialogue and help them help themselves. If they deny and don’t want to discuss it, let them go. If you allow this, then it is YOU that needs help.

Here is another version of the same problem. Where someone is treating you badly, but you have this denied superiority judgment on what you believe is love; that just because they are treating you badly, YOU will not stoop to their level and do what you consider to be bad to them. It’s the unseen role of denial and judgments that keeps you in the endless cycle if abuse.

Says 308 – The power of love vs the love of power

Posted on 2017/11/29 by johnrieger

The Power of Love vs the love of power

No longer obeying and playing by the rules, doesn’t mean that one needs to physically revolt and fight those in a position of power; unless that is what you think/feel is necessary. To truly oppose those in a position of power, you need to realize that their power is derived from your, and societies, denials and belief that you are compelled to obey the laws that they have set forth as truth, and willingly accept that they have authority over your sovereign being. It’s your beliefs, judgments, fear and denials that give them the power to do what they have been, and are doing.

But, there is always the proverbial but, you can’t change the outer reality until you change your inner reality, and that means letting go of your old beliefs and judgments and also ending your denials of expressing yourself when you feel you are being controlled and manipulated. All this is the OPPOSITE of what you have been doing and that is where the POWER of LOVE comes into play. Those that have a LOVE of POWER fear the POWER of LOVE, as it means that they now have no power over you as you are not giving it to them by way of your denials. Ending your denials ends their source of power. The power of love (self-love) overcomes the love of power. Simple, but if it were that simple the world would not be in the state it is. Talking the talk is easy, but walking the talk isn’t, as it goes against everything that you believe is true, and it’s also something that you have never done before so you don’t know if it works or not.

Know that most people are denial spirits or spirits in denial, and so the truth will feel like hatred to them. They will use any means to get you to deny expressing your truth as they need you to be in denial so that they can continue to have power over you. Some of the techniques they will use are intimidation, interrogation, oh poor me, withdrawal, guilt and shame. If you still have any issues with others using these tactics on you, then you still have some inner work to do before you are ready to test it in your outer reality.

Says 306 – Medical Mentaloid’s thoughts on stress and sickness

Posted on 2017/11/26 by johnrieger

Typical medical part-truths along with a bunch of bullshit, presented as scientific evidence and truth. Stress can’t be created by thought alone, as there needs to be an accompanying emotional feeling. If you just thought stress… it doesn’t have the emotional energy to create the feeling of stress in the body.

The emotional reaction that the mentaloid talks about is the continued suppression of emotions that were denied expression in the original experience, which is what causes the stressful emotions to be experienced again and again.

Sure, you can break free of the chain of emotional addiction, as he calls it, but it’s only a temporary quick fix as you haven’t dealt with the original cause. Denial does not work… but it’s what is being drummed into those that are deemed to have “mental” issues.

Says 258 – Unexpected visitors

Posted on 2017/03/17 by johnrieger

2017 March 17 – 8:40 pm. I begin channeling and writing.

So what do you, Baal, and Lucifer want?

WE WANT YOU, YOU LITTLE ASSHOLE. WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE – GOD? FUCK YOU – YOU CAN’T DEFEAT US AND YOU KNOW THAT AND YOUR PETTY BOOKS ARE NOT GOING TO HELP ANYONE. WE’LL SEE TO THAT. HA, HA, HA.

If that were a truth, then you wouldn’t be here, trying to stop me would you?

YOU THINK YOU ARE SO FUCKING SMART DON’T YOU. YOU STILL BELIEVE AND TALK THE SAME OLD SHIT THAT YOU DID YEARS AGO.

Well you couldn’t stop me then and you won’t stop me now.

WE’LL SEE ABOUT THAT. WE AREN’T FINISHED WITH YOU, YOU LITTLE PRICK. A THORN IN OUR SIDE, BUT YOUR TIME OF BEING A NUISANCE THAT WE HAVE HAD TO PUT UP WITH IS ABOUT TO END.

Oh, so you couldn’t stop me and so now you are saying you were happy to put up with me, calling me a nuisance. If I was just a nuisance, then you BIG BOYS would not be trying to stop me again. So what you are saying is all bullshit, like usual.

YOU FUCK HEAD. YOU THINK YOU ARE SO FUCKING SMART AND YOU KNOW WHAT WE ARE THINKING AND DOING. YOU ARE A TOOTHLESS ASSHOLE AND WE ARE GOING TO FUCK YOU OVER AND PUT AN END TO YOU ONCE AND FOR ALL.

You’ve said that before. What’s the matter? Don’t you remember? You couldn’t do it then and you can’t do it now. You don’t have the power you once had over me. That is long gone as I can see and feel you for what you are. Denial is your game and so is control.

BULLSHIT!!!! FUCK YOU – YOU FUCKING KNOW IT ALL. WE’LL SEE WHO IS IN DENIAL AND HAS THE POWER AND IS IN CONTROL. LOOK AROUND YOU. THE WORLD IS ALMOST OURS AND YOU CAN’T DO A FUCKING THING ABOUT IT. HA. HA. HA. HA.

Keyword, “almost.” That means you don’t have the power to take control and have absolute power. Because if you did, you egg heads would not be here trying to stop this little nuisance as you called me. Right?

FUCK YOU!!! YOU PRICK!!! YOU PUT WORDS IN OUR MOUTHS AND TWIST THINGS AROUND TO SUIT YOU. IT DOESN’T WORK. HA, HA, HA, WE ARE NOT GOING TO WASTE ANYMORE TIME ON YOU. YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT.

If I wasn’t worth it, you wouldn’t be here in the first place, would you?

I feel they are leaving. I’m laughing as I can see through their game of intimidation, but denial has no power against truth.

Where did you go?

What? No come backs or threats?

Interesting, I was at my computer desk and using my pendulum to contact my guides to get an answer as to what I need to do with the idea of adding selected excerpts from my books to my website, either on my main site or using Dokuwiki.

The pendulum (when in contact with my guides) usually responds quickly and in a yes or no manner that leaves no doubt, but this time the pendulum moved slowly and also had mixed and conflicting answers, so I knew something was up and that’s when I felt the presence of Baal and Lucifer and started writing what you just read. BTW, any evil entity that has either directly typed their response to me from another person’s computer, or that I have channeled, has always spoken and typed in CAPITAL LETTERS. I guess they feel it is more powerful.

After they were gone, I got in touch with my guides and the answer was a definite “yes” to add them to my shenreed Book website. So that is what I’ll be working on over the weekend.

Says 249 – Denials an attachments ended – game over

Posted on 2017/01/30 by johnrieger

I’m not going to go into all the details that played themselves out over the past few months suffice to say that they all came to a head within three days. What became clear was that she was not as helpless as she pretended to be, and that a lot of her lies, secrets, avoidance, omissions and denials were exposed for what they were. She was not only playing me, but my son and daughter, her friends and even acquaintances on the internet. She was acting out the “oh poor me” and using whoever and whatever she could to get attention, even if it was negative, it was still attention. She is a self-centered self-absorbed Narcissist and an energy vampire. Her house of cards is crumbling and her reality is quickly changing. As I now see it, she has two choices;

take responsibly for her thoughts and actions and make the positive changes or,
Remain the narcissist and nothing changes.

It will be interesting to see what develops in the coming months now that her little game has blown up in her face.

Attachments that are OBVIOUS are easy to spot and release, but it’s the little issues that you don’t see that still form the attachment. In uncovering my attachments and ending my denials, I realized that as we were still on a friendly basis and since she is what is considered bi-polar, and has other illnesses, (judgments and attachments) and so I silently (in denial) put up with her blatant lies and denials, saying that is just the way she is, and instead, focused on trying to help her and find the good in her.

Not challenging her blatant denial, lies, omission and avoidance, as in not wanting to upset her, I was in denial and unconsciously allowed her to use those against me. The sick “twist” in all this is that at times she really needed help, but other times it was just a game and she was acting the “oh poor me” to get whatever power she could by knowing she was controlling the another being. The more I allowed, the more she used them against me in the form of getting me to do things for her that affected my time, energy and money, to the point that this past weekend, I saw exactly what she was doing and what I was allowing her to do, via the unseen role of denial, judgments and attachments. When I called her out on her denials and lies, and stated that I was finished helping her and empowering her “oh poor me” reality, our attachments were broken and I was free, while she was left to deal with her denials in your own way and to take, or not take, responsibility for her well being.

The unseen role of denial that I didn’t see with my ex-wife’s scenario was that in my Spirit (mind) and the Spirit polarity aspect of my Heart, that defines love by words and deeds and not by how it feels, thought that I was being kind, caring, sharing, considerate, compassionate, etc., etc., for those that I judged to be less fortunate. That “less fortunate” judgment (that I now release) has an unloving aspect to it that of a false sense of pride, in that it silently and smugly deems me to be superior or better than, or in a better position than another. The opposite side of my outer judgments says that if I have judgments of being better than others, I must also have the judgment on self that I’m not as fortunate as good as some other people.

So the realization was that this doesn’t just apply to my ex-wife, but to everyone that I’m in contact with. The subtle judgments, the false pride, the trying to be nice, even to an asshole because he/she is drunk or on drugs or whatever, are all things that I need to release to really empower myself on all levels. How this played out in my outer reality was that my ex-wife was ACTING like she needed help and asking for it, either directly or indirectly. These weren’t an “in the moment” type situations or experiences of helping another that you could see and feel were in need of help, but on an attachment and judgment level based on past experiences and old imprints, programs and beliefs of what the person appeared to be going through and needing help with.

While this may seem like it’s not a big deal, I assure you it is, as guilt and shame are constantly at me, trying to get me to reverse my position, to be responsible and be the “nice” guy again. Like I said, this isn’t just about my ex-wife, but how I respond to all that I come in contact with. It’s a new way of seeing that just because someone looks like they are the victim and in need of help, doesn’t mean that they are. They just play the “Oh poor me” game from another angle and don’t be fooled, it is effective. Besides the Oh poor me, the other major game players in the energy sucking power game are the intimidator, the interrogator, and the aloft. Some are quite good at using two or more power plays to get what they want and will flip back and forth at easy. Recognizing them is the first step at ending their control over you. . It’s been a while since I read it, but I think these are outlined in the book, “Celestine Prophecy” by James Redfield.

Says 247 – A life based on lies and denials

Posted on 2017/01/23 by johnrieger

A life based on lies, omission, avoidance and denial is really very fragile, like a pyramid build of a deck of playing cards. All it takes is for the bottom foundation on which the rest is balanced to be removed and the whole thing comes tumbling down. When the truth is revealed there is nothing to support the rest, and they too fall.

Until the truth is finally recognized and revealed, not by the person doing the lying and denying, but the one that is the unwitting object of the deceit. While blatant and obvious denials can be spotted in others, it’s the unseen role that denial plays in the self that is the key issue. To empower yourself, you need to not only see the denial in others, but also your part in it. In the next few posts, I’ll be sharing a person experience that I had the past weekend.

Says 230 – Realizations on Healing the Body

Posted on 2016/11/21 by johnrieger

I spent more than two hours (in the middle of the night) writing 11 1/2 pages in my journal. I’m posting it in its entirety as I want you to see how the thought/feeling process unfolded and how I gained realizations as to how to heal my Body. The story begins with a recount Saturday afternoon experiences that triggered the middle of the night writings. Sorry that it’s kind of long. I was going to break this down into two or three segments, but felt it would fragment the flow of acquiring this realization.

2016 November 19 Saturday 2:30 pm – I had gone to the farmers market and while there I got a pain behind my right shoulder blade and spine that ran up to my neck. It was especially painful and felt like a knot or kink, but I don’t know what caused it. Another thing is that my right hip was also sore and hurting.

I lay down to have a brief nap and reflect on my shoulder and I got that it’s involved with a car accident, and more. I flashed to seeing the woman in her SUV going through the intersection and I slammed on the brakes. On impact, my right leg was pressing on the brake pedal and that resulted in my right hip not moving forward like my left one as my left leg was not braced in the same way. This, and the fact that I was thrown into the driver’s door helped to twist my hip. In a similar fashion, my right and left arm were braced for impact and the jarring impact, followed by the twisting action of being hurled into the driver’s door twisted my right shoulder neck and spine.

But, there’s more. While all this was going on, my mind was thinking of survival and denied any emotional and physical expression except those that supported its survival mentality, like focusing on things that were OK, with little consideration or recognition of the real pain in the body that was numb and in shock, and unable to express itself as it needed to. It was only hours and days after the accident when the shock wore off that my mind became aware of the damage that had been inflicted on my Body, and even then, it was only related to the pain that the body was feeling at the time, that the Mind didn’t want to feel, and not what actually happened to the body, or what help the body needed to allow it to heal itself.

I got up and did two exercises from the Rudolph Stone Polarity Therapy book, chart 63 and 64, and my shoulders and lower back feel a bit better. I still feel a pinched nerve in my left shoulder but overall, I’m not in the pain I was in before.

So now the question is how do I heal my physical body?, When I was working on healing my emotions, I would remember the traumatic experiences, and my Spirit (Mind) would allow my Soul [Will] to express everything that it never got to express during the original experiences, like heartbreak, terror, anger, rage, aloneness, unloved, betrayal, manipulated, etc. As I wrote that, I flashed to some of the healing experiences I witnessed when working with others, and while some of the previous mentioned emotions were involved, it was guilt and shame that were stored in the body, that negatively affected the physical body with aches, pains, and disabilities. Once they released the guilt and shame energy they had been holding, the body immediately responded with health and well being. So now the questions are; where does the body store any so-called negative feelings and emotions like heartbreak, betrayal, unloved, alone, etc., and how does one release them? Also, where and how does the body’s own feelings, emotions and pain get stored [trapped] in the body, and how does one release them?

November 20, Sunday 2:50 AM

2:50 am – As mentioned, I had a real pain in my back between my shoulder blades and into my neck yesterday. I just got up now to go to the bathroom, and my back felt a bit better. I also got the feeling that it’s associated with the betrayal and heartbreak of getting blindsided and stabbed in the back. Not expecting to be hurt that way from people I loved and trusted. Suddenly feeling flooded with pain, disbelief and shock, and heartbroken and betrayed and not knowing what to say in a moment as you are too numb to even respond and so you react and pretend [deny] that it’s not happening and that its normal, going to be OK, that it’s just a dream, that you were wrong, or that they did mean it and were just joking.

I just remembered a poem I wrote in my teens and early twenties, that I shared in my third book. The poem is titled, Temp/Anger, and it’s basically all about this issue. Wow! It’s all about SURVIVAL, and how I have taken in unloving energy and have been holding it in my spine, my chakras, and other parts of my body.

3:10 am – I just had a brief flutter of heartbreak but it came and went just as fast, but at least it moved.

I just flashed different [unexpected and unpleasant] experiences that I’ve had, and also good experiences, where I deliberately shot myself down for fear of getting hurt again, so it’s a better that I ended as it will hurt less. This was mainly with relationships, especially female, where I’d either convinced myself they were not interested in me, or that they were too good for me, or that I wasn’t good enough for them. I flashed through my teenage years of feeling ashamed of not only me, but my parents as well for being poor. I didn’t want to have a girlfriend for fear of having her find out how poor we were.

Starting school was a big time shock for me. Besides the physical, mental and emotional abuse, I felt heartbreak and betrayed by my parents, teachers and peers. I also felt an overwhelming feeling of heartlessness being directed at me with no real way of not taking it in. In believing that what was happening to me was my fault, and also based on my religious indoctrination (RC) beliefs of TRUSTING PEOPLE, thinking that they were as loving as I was. Giving them the benefit of the doubt time and time again that I heard known, or convincing myself to wait and see what else they had the say that would clear up my doubts.

3:25 am – This seems like a repeat of what I went through in healing my Will, but yet it seems like on a different level, as the feelings and emotions are more like shadows, and not as strong and powerful like I had previously experience. Aha! – I just realized that while I was able to move my emotions that I had denied expression, I hadn’t moved all the unloving denial energy that I had taken in during and after those experiences. I hadn’t moved the feelings my Body had experienced. I denied myself even to the point of shutting down my physical talents and gifts so that I wouldn’t upset people, so that they would like and accept me.

I just felt more feelings of heartbreak that came and went again just as quickly.

I feel I’ve cut off and denied so much of myself, my innocence, that if I compare all my Essence when I incarnated to what I have left now, it’s like my physical body compared to my left hand. I’ve lost almost all of me, not lost, more like I can’t find. But yes, lost in that I denied and cut them off. Aha! I just realized that it’s more like this is how much unloving denial energy of others that my physical body is holding in these parts of me, energy that is not mine and is of reversed polarity.

It is my intent to move any and all unloving energy and Essence that is not mine from my body. From my physical, mental, emotional and etheric bodies and chakras, and to send it back to where it came from or to its right place, so that I can heal all aspects of me.

I just added that I want to transform my own reversed polarity unloving energy that is in the form of an attachment to people places and things. That while I had no conscious intent to harm or over-power, it still is unloving through the unseen role of denial and needs to be transformed. Connections yes, attachments no.

3:45 am – I was just thinking of how I hated my body for being small, weak, different, and unacceptable. I even remember going through a stage where I wanted to change my name, thinking that would change things. I hated my body for being sick, hurt, or injured as if it was my body’s fault for what it was experiencing and for not being able to do what I (my Mind) wanted it to do.

(Again I felt some emotions move briefly.)

I pushed my body even when it was sick or hurt to do what I felt I needed to do, which was to SURVIVE this fucking cruel world. Humph!!! I have to die to live and isn’t that fucked up?

(Now I’m feeling and expressing some anger and rage.)

Whoa! I just realized that I unconsciously kill my essence in order to do what I believe is needed to live. I cut off and deny parts of me that are hurt and wounded so that the rest of me can go on with this illusion called life. WTF! Now I feel numb. I’m in shock at that realization and how close I’ve come to almost having to leave my physical body and the Essence I’ve abandoned and denied, thereby giving Lucifer what he wants.

FUCK THAT! FUCK YOU LUCIFER! You’re not going to win.

I just flashed to the light and dark wizards duel and how I lost a major part of my Essence there. I intend to get those parts back also. I’m getting all parts of me that I’ve denied and lost in all time, and dimensions. I intend to recover all parts of my Being. I will not stop until every last part of me that is out there and being held by unloving light is back into my Essence. I will move any and all unloving light back to whom or where it belongs, to its right place. I no longer accept it in and upon me. I ask for help from Mother and Father and all my guides that are here to assist me to help me in whatever way is appropriate and serves my highest purpose, love, and light.

4:10 am – I just realized that taking medicine, pain relievers, and even chiropractic treatments and massage, etc., and even using heat and baths are unloving and controlling. While it APPEARS you are loving yourself, it is in reality [through the unseen role of denial] actually your mind trying to force the body not to be sick, weak, or in pain.

FUCK this is SUBTLE!

But the underlying intent is still unloving if it’s not what the Body is asking for, but what the Mind wants the Body to do so that it can do what it wants and be happy. It’s more unloving light that is actually the Mind that has been imprinted and program; that it is in control, that it is the master, that it knows what is best for all. I now recognize that it is my light that has reversed its polarity and has become unloving light and has been slowly killing me, although it was unconscious and unaware that it was doing so.

Aha! I realize that by denial, I’ve taken in, accepted; unloving light that has imprinted and programmed my Mind to control the rest of my Being. The more I denied, (what I believed was wrong with me) the more I changed from the loving light I was, to become what I am now. I thought my light was wrong and that this unloving light that I took in was right. That I needed to be like the others in order to live and be happy like them and that is totally FUCKED! My intent is to let go of any and all unloving imprints, programs, and beliefs that would have me reverse my lights polarity, from loving to unloving. I ask for help to become aware when I’m doing this so that I can end this action that has been slowly killing me, as what I desire is life and love.

4:30 am – Having to go to school to learn things so that you can get a job and earn money, to pay for things that enable you to survive for a few years, until you grow sick and old and are of no further use and die. This reality is forced upon us the day we are born. We grow old and these imprints, programs, and beliefs are what we take to the grave, or rather have been. I’m not buying that reality any longer and I let go of those imprints, programs and beliefs.

You force your Mind to control your emotions, and you force your Body to do the things it does not want to do so that the Mind can get what it believes is the power [money] to enable it to do what it thinks it needs and wants to be happy, and to also support the family with shelter, food, clothing, and the pleasures of this so called life. This reality is actually a hideous energy form sucking the life out of our loving Bodies through our denials and willingness to be like them, the “Otherkin,” those that do not belong in this universe and that need to be moved to the right place.

4:40 am – This is somewhat of a rehash of what I went through and know several years ago, but now it takes on a new feeling and meaning. I’m also beginning to feel a new life force rising in me, a new conviction and determination, and new purpose, or maybe it’s just a rekindling of an old flame that has been put aside to finish the books and that part of my journey. Whatever it is, I like it.

4:50 am – I asked my Body to show me what it needs to show me, to move any unloving light that it is holding and help me transform any reversed polarity parts of my light. I asked it also to show me any lost Will energy that it is holding and the unloving energy that is associated with it, so that I can recover lost Will Essence and move out unloving energy.

5:05 am -I closed my eyes and saw several dark forms moving before me. Lucifer, Baal, Melchizedek, and others, hovering over me, cussing and name calling, stating that I can’t do what I’m doing and that they are not through with me, that they will stop me. I smiled as that was what they were saying the last time I was close to a breakthrough. This time I rolled over and went to sleep, and woke up at 9:15 am.

To understand what life is, you need to understand what Death is.

Says 197 – You are not your problem – NOT

Posted on 2016/08/05 by johnrieger

When I see these types of meme’s being posted by people that believe them to be true, I know that they are ignorant and haven’t analyzed and felt the true implications of the statement, and that they are in denial of their issues. If that statement were a truth, then applying the most basic logic and reasoning to, “you are not your problem” would also apply to every living person on this planet. If you are not your problem, then by denial, you have to blame everyone and anything outside yourself as the problem.

What you are also doing with that belief is making your happiness dependent on another person, place, or thing. In other words, you are giving your power away as they now CONTROL you. Trying to fix the problem using that Belief System (BS) doesn’t work, no matter how hard you try, it is at best a “quick fix.” So if that doesn’t work, you need to do the reverse or the opposite to try to solve the problem by realizing that the problem is not outside yourself, but inside you. If pushing the door doesn’t open it, maybe pulling it will.

For the universe to make you aware of the issues you have chosen to heal by reincarnating, it needs to bring you experiences that will trigger and activate you. The problem is with your Mind that is still running on its old imprints, programs and beliefs, that until it is aware enough to desire to change, will just keep going in circles, trying to apply the same fuzzy and twisted logic that created the problem, in trying to fix it. With self-awareness comes self-empowerment, and until you choose to end your denials and look at you as being the problem to your issues, nothing changes.

Says 152 – You can’t change how people treat you (BS)

Posted on 2013/09/02 by johnrieger

I saw this picture posted on Facebook and felt I needed to make a comment. The words of this BS (Belief System) are a truth, but only as long as you are in denial and have chosen to remain the victim. Even though you no longer appear to re-act to what they say or do, that doesn’t mean that you are not being triggered. All it proves is that you’ve learned to be a better actor or actress. Being nice, kind, caring, sharing, understanding, co-operative, compromising, etc., to others when you feel pressured and controlled to do so, either by them or by your beliefs, is not loving to yourself or to them. There are countless reasons why people subject themselves to being the victim, but none are valid or loving to self. It’s important to note that the way people treat you is a reflection of the way you are treating yourself. Change yourself, and the outer reflection will also change.

Denying what is happening is not changing yourself, as it hasn’t addressed the underlying issues. Once you have intent to find and heal your issues as to why people treat you the way they do, you will change and will no longer be activated and re-acting, but will instead, respond to them in whatever way and manner you feel directed to oppose any such further abuse. Once you have stated your response in a honest and forthright manner, they will change and will no longer be attacking you, as they will have gotten your message loud and clear. Of course, they may no longer want to be your friend or whatever relationship they had with you, as you are no longer willing to be the victim and controlled by them. If that comment brings up issues, then that also needs to be addressed as that attachment is part of the reason you are a victim and being treated the way you are.

Says 133 – Land of Pan and Sandy Hook

Posted on 2013/01/28 by johnrieger

2013 Jan 19 The Sandy Hook school shooting in Newtown, Connecticut reminds me of a story in the RUOW books and the dark Wizard (Lucifer) Book 1 (Chapter – The Land of Pan). The story is about how the Dark Wizard had organized duel contests, where he defeated every wizard that challenged him by denying the validity of the others wizards approach, and by insisting that the duels had to be done according to his rules. Some wizards that saw the duels refused his challenge and said he should be stopped. Others said that he was not such a bad guy after all, and still others tried to quiet their fears by telling themselves and others that he wasn’t really gaining power, that it was only an illusion that they weren’t going to believe. The Dark Wizard gained a lot of energy from these denials on which to feed and he got more and more powerful and found that he could do things right in front of others that they did not want to see, and they would not see them. If he was noticed, he denied what he was actually doing and said he was doing something else. Some that didn’t want to accept the horror of what was actually happening helped the wizard explain away his outrages.

Sandy Hook is a repeat of what happened in Pan, only in a different form. As long as the general public, “sheeple” continue to deny the reality they are experiencing, their reality will not only, not change, but will get worse. They avoid and deny what they see and feel because they have a false sense of hope, and have convinced themselves that things aren’t really as bad as others make them out to be and that the government will fix the problem, or that someone will save the day. Sad to say, it doesn’t look like they are going to change their denial based point-of-view until it is right in their face and up close and personal, and then watch them scream about the injustice and heartlessness they are experiencing, and then they will either be begging for help or trying to fight their oppressors.

We have been brainwashed for eons and naively believe and accept the illusions we experience, as being natural and reality. Politics, religion, media, etc., are all power and control based tools used by those in a position of power to maintain and expand their empires. The hypocrisy and unlovingness that is happening now, I witnessed and felt on a smaller scale as a child and I have seen it steadily increase, to where it is now becoming blatantly obvious and an in your face experience, yet people still continue to deny the falseness and heartlessness of it all. Politicians, religious leaders, media, etc., are caught red handed in their denials, lies, deception and heartlessness, yet it’s all dismissed by the general population (sheeple) as normal, while those that are aware and speak up, are shamed and ridiculed.

The awareness that there is something majorly wrong with this reality is what I call “the quickening,” the beginning of the stirrings of consciousness. The real challenge is to awaken and heal the parts of our Essence that has been damaged by our living in this heartless reality as that is when things will truly change.

Says118 – Avoidance and the unseen role of Denial

Posted on 2012/12/05 by johnrieger

I saw a program on TV about a dog whisperer and during his interview, he used the word avoidance along with three other words, fight, flight and surrender that I often use to describe what happens when people get activated into their issues. While those three words describes their actions once they have been activated, it doesn’t describe how they are re-acting when they are not activated and that is where the word AVOIDANCE comes in. When he mentioned avoidance, it really struck a chord in me as it was another piece of the puzzle that I needed to see in a different light. With avoidance, there is also the use of lies, omission as well as outright denial. While I knew that avoidance was a form of denial, I’ve never really associated it with a three other reactions that people have when they are being activated or triggered. When he used the word avoidance, it became blatantly obvious that avoidance is the main method used to avoid having to face what you are denying and not wanting to face, because if you did, you would get activated you then react with the other three choices.

The avoidance I’m talking about isn’t running when you have been activated, but what you are doing and saying to avoid any situation that you know will activate you. Like when you have a fear of heights, water, knives, guns, fire, crowds, conflict, saying no, getting attention, public speaking, etc, and you avoid any experiences that will trigger that issue. There are countless ways and means to avoid things, from moving around or away from something or someone , procrastinating, deflecting, invalidating, keeping busy, using drugs, alcohol, work, sex, exercise, hobbies, crafts, TV, eating, and the list goes on and on. This avoidance also includes all the different forms of lies, omission and denial that a person can use to avoid an unpleasant situation and be activated. I never really felt how avoidance was linked to the unseen role of denial, but it hit home as I saw how I have been procrastinating and avoiding finishing my books.

Says 87 – Hate and Compassion

Posted on 2012/10/03 by johnrieger

2012 Sept 10 Hate, like love, is energy and when you hate a person, place or thing you are projecting a part of your energy (unlovingness) toward that which you hate. This energy (thought form) goes out and attacks the person, place or thing and tries to form an attachment to it as a means of having power and control over it. If the person that is being attacked is in denial, an attachment is created and when that happens, they are literally feeding the other person their energy, as well as drawing the unloving energy that is being directed at them, into their Body. You know you have an attachment when you feel depressed and angry and you body will feel tired, drained and sore, etc., as well as having this person in your thoughts. If they are of unloving intent and have activated you, and you have gapped and gone into denial, then they thrive on your fear as that is sending them your energy (food) as that keeps them going, keeps them alive.

If you have intent to end this hatred that is being directed at others, you need to become aware of when you are being activated and triggered into this denied rage and hatred and then find the source of this hatred energy and release it. If you have intent to heal and end the hatred that is being directed at you, and your fear of confronting that hatred, you also need to find the source of your fear and release it, and in the process, heal that part of you. But, there is always a but. This is not as simple as it seems as there are also issues of denied terror and heartbreak that also have to be touched and healed for true healing to take place.

Compassion I was doing my exercises this morning and thought of a friend and how I’ve been noticing her moving further and further away, meaning having less and less mental awareness and consciousness. I know there is nothing I can do to save her, as she has free Will and must make the choice to save herself. Even if I tried to pull her out of her downward spiral, she would either fight to resist me, or, if she responded, it would only be as long as I was supporting her and as soon as I let go, she would drift back down again as she has no intent to change the heart to do it.

I then thought of the word compassion and that it’s knowing that you can’t help a person, and that you just have to let them go. That’s different than being in a situation where you know you can help another, like grabbing someone that is preoccupied and about to walk in front of a moving bus. You respond in the moment and then, what they do or don’t do after that moment is their choice. Is example is by no means the only form of compassion and while they are different situations, what is similar in all is that there is no attachment to the person, place or thing.

Says 85 – Israel doing more saber rattling in preparation for war

Posted on 2012/09/17 by johnrieger

2012 Sept 17 Monday Iran on brink of nuclear bomb in six-seven months: Netanyahu

“Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu warned on Sunday that Iran was just six to seven months away from the brink of being able to build a nuclear bomb.”
“Netanyahu’s sharpened rhetoric in recent days had stoked speculation that Israel might attack Iran before the U.S. election, believing that Obama would give it military help and not risk alienating pro-Israeli voters.”

“It’s the same fanaticism that you see storming your embassies today. You want these fanatics to have nuclear weapons?” Netanyahu asked in the NBC interview, in a clear emotional appeal to Americans still reeling from the angry protests sparked by a film that mocked the Prophet Mohammad.”
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What he’s NOT saying, what is being denied is that Israel has a stockpile of Nuclear weapons, and has had for decades. As long as they are the only country in the Middle East with nuclear weapons, they don’t want anyone else with the same capabilities as that would neutralize base of power, which of course, is backed by the USA.

What he’s also not saying about the recent events and killing of US embassy staff is that the people were provoked by the recent release of the film, “Innocence of Muslims,” which is an anti Islam video that claims Islam is a lie and that Mohammed was a pedophile. Muslims are reacting to this religious insult just as Christians would also be outraged if anyone mocked Jesus, or Jews reacting to any anti Moses propaganda. Just because they’re Muslims reacting to their religious beliefs, they are called fanatics, while if that happened to Christians or Jews, their violent outbursts would be deemed justified.

The thing that is starting to come out about this film is that the film was endorsed and funded by the US government. Similar to the recent Colorado “Dark Knight Batman” Theatre Massacre, there is also a cover-up going on as things don’t add up and clearly points the finger at the US government and their agencies.

UPDATE:
Iran on brink of nuclear bomb in six-seven months: Netanyahu

Who’s Sabotaging Iran’s Nuclear Program?

Twenty-five plus countries prepare for strike in Iran

Says 72 – Chat with the landlords – leaving the end of August.

Posted on 2012/07/31 by johnrieger

2012 July 28 Saturday 11;00 am. The landlord came to my room and asked me if I had found another place yet. I invited him into my room and we had a little chat. I stated that I liked the room and the other people living here and that I’d like to stay, but that we need to clear the air. I said that I speak my mind and ask questions when I am confused or feel someone is trying to manipulate or bullshit me. And just because I express myself, that doesn’t mean that I’m the bad one for uncovering the truth that another person is trying to hide.

I asked about the A/C and was given several BS stories. I asked about why you went into my room without permission, and you questioned my questioning you. And most recently my asking your wife why she was up here at midnight, making a noise, and basically telling me to fuck off. Me asking questions is NOT the problem. You guys not answering my question in a forthright and honest manner and lying, omitting, avoiding or denying is the problem.

He then began his response by saying that what goes on between us, stays with us. We don’t like you talking with the other tenants and stirring things up. I said that the other tenants come to me and tell me things but they are too shit scared to confront you or your wife. I told him that I don’t keep secrets and I don’t hide the truth. If the problem is uncovered and the truth is honestly and openly expressed, then there is no longer a problem as it will be resolved. The problem only continues to be a problem as long as we try to deny and cover up that there is a problem.

If I were to say nothing or to agree with you even if I did it just to make you happy, then I’d be just like you, a person that lies, omits, avoid and denies telling the truth. What would make you happy is for me to obey you and agree with anything you say or do. My being real and honest is not what you want to hear, as you would like to have obedient tenants that are just grateful for what you give them, and do what you want without question, as having that power and control over others is what makes you and your wife happy.

He then suggested that I meet with him and his wife later to discuss the matter, but she was busy showing the room across the hall from me and wasn’t going to be free until early afternoon.

1:30 pm, I went downstairs and had a meeting with both, and the woman was adamant in getting rid of me, as no matter what I said, she avoided or denied answering my direct questions. In the end, the only thing that was resolved was that I would be out by Friday, August 31 (or before) if I found another place sooner. They also stated that if I left sooner, that they would reimburse me the number of days I had left to the end of the month if I paid the full month’s rent, and also return my $100.00 deposit. The landlord extended his hand and I accepted the offer.

Says 61 – Met a New Age woman from the internet

Posted on 2012/07/27 by johnrieger

July 06 I drove to Kitchener to meet a woman that I had met on an internet forum that suggested that we meet for coffee and a chat. It was the first time that I met another new age person on line that only lived ½ hour away from me. We met at a coffee shop and talked for about an hour and a half, and left with her giving me an invitation to go canoeing.

That was on Friday, but by Sunday, she had not only withdrawn the offer, but stated that she wanted nothing more to do with me. It seems that during our little coffee time chat, she had been activated by my story of communicating with demons, and saying that they are only around you when they think you are about to move out of being controlled by them. Otherwise, when you are a good sheeple, they leave you alone as you are following their orders nicely. In her emails to me she also accused me of being dark and unloving energy as I had channeled them. I replied that during our coffee chat, I made it clear that I didn’t seek to communicate with them, that they came to me. That when I felt their presence around me, I had a conversation with them and I also said that you can learn a lot from them if you are not in denial and ask them questions and FEEL what they are saying or not saying.

She didn’t say anything at the time of our coffee meeting (denial), but later, when she had time to re-live her activation and denials, she couldn’t face her fear of demons and blamed me as being aligned with the dark side and one that she never wanted to be associated with. Hence her fear was activated and her way of avoiding it was to avoid me. So what else is new?

Says 27 – The cause of all illness and aging is denial

Posted on 2012/03/26 by johnrieger

2012 March 19, The present issues I’m working on is healing my Body and manifesting my desires and that includes dealing with illness and aging that are manifested by the Body. While there are countless forms of disease, there is only one underlying cause, and that is denial. Denial, the denied energy (reversed polarity) from all parts of the self is what causes the disease and aging. Although it’s not obvious, it’s the unseen role of denial that is the root of our beliefs and judgments, and I’ve found that one of the biggest limitations and judgments on our Being is our social and personal definitions of who and what we are. If you make a list of all your negative “I am” faults, you will have a record of all your limiting beliefs and judgments. Some of my limiting “I am” beliefs and judgments are:

I am getting old because:
I’m not as strong as I once was
I’m not as energetic as I once was
I am getting white hair
I am losing my hearing
I am losing my eyesight
I am feeling pain in my bones
I am feeling pain in my muscles

While I have some knowledge, insights and understandings into the issues in my life from my past emotional healing experiences, I still don’t have the understandings I need to solve this current illness and aging issue with my Body. I have yet to apply my knowledge and experience it in a real life situation, in the “now” or present moment, to see if what I think I know, really works.

The cause of all pain and suffering is denial.

Says 14 – Body carrying the (LOAD = Lies, Omission, Avoidance, Denial)

Posted on 2012/03/12 by johnrieger

February 18 6:25 AM I was thinking about death and how Spirit (Mind) has never experienced what our Body and Will have experienced. When a person dies, it’s the Spirit (life force) that leaves first, and then, within a few seconds, Heart (represented by our physical heart) stops and with that, there is no longer any flow of the life force to nourish the Body.

The Will, being magnetic in nature, doesn’t leave the Body immediately, nor does she want to as life is what she desires, but without Spirit presence, to animate Body with life, the Body cannot exist in the form it had. Without Spirit, the Will is slowly forced to leave the Body, and as she leaves, the parts of the Body begin to return to the original essence and elements that it was made from. One thing I need to mention is that just because Spirit and Heart have left the Body/Will, that doesn’t mean that the Body’s and Will’s ability to feel and sense what is going on has stopped, as only Body’s ability to move and respond has ceased to function. It can still feel pain in all those parts that still have Will presence, it just can’t move and respond to them.

It’s like a person that is in a coma and while they are unable to communicate, they are totally aware of what is going on, they just can’t move their eyes, speak, or even move their finger to show they are alive and aware of their surroundings and the physical and emotional pain they are in. A person in a coma still has some part of their Spirit essence in their Body as it hasn’t totally decided to leave, yet. It has lifted most of it’s essence and consciousness, except for what is needed to keep the body/Will alive. Heart presence is still in the Body to maintain the flow of life essence. Left unattended, the person would be unable to feed or care for themselves and unless Spirit chose to return, a slow and agonizing dying process would follow until such time that Spirit did leave and Body/Will would feel abandoned, unloved, rejected, and heartbroken.

I just felt and realized that while Spirit has never experienced what Body and Will have, that there is a part of Heart essence that has remained and experienced an aspect of dying. Although this part of Heart has momentarily remained, it has only experienced Spirit leaving and only the very beginning of the emotional and physical pain that the Will and Body was feeling, as when it felt its terror of death, it was quick to follow Spirit. Spirits terror is to experience dying and death, as life is what it is, and Heart has similar issues. When Spirit (Mind) says that death is nothing, it is only nothing to Spirit because Spirit has never experienced it, so there was NO THING to experience.

Humm? This relates back to the beginning of how Spirit is in terror of losing any part of the Body’s FULL sensations, especially sight, and sound, as then it is in the dark, the unknown, and left to the remaining senses, of touch, taste and smell, feeling crippled and powerless.

Loss of the physical senses and the body’s physical abilities of its youth terrify the Spirit and is in part, the cause of aging, as Spirit tries to deny what has happened to Body as a result of the experiences it, and the Will have had to endure without the acceptance and help from Spirit. All the times when Spirit/Will/Body/Heart were confronted with traumatic experiences, Spirit did what it thought it needed to do in order to survive, by cutting off and denying the parts of itself, it’s Will, (feelings and emotions) as well as Body sensations. It’s all these denials, (denied reversed energy) that the body is forced to hold and carry. It’s the LOAD (Lies, Omission, Avoidance, Denial) that gradually weighs down the Body, causing it to move and react slower and not heal like it once did , and to also diminish its senses. That’s when Spirit begins to become aware of the things it doesn’t like about the Body, which only adds to the denials that the Body is forced to hold, thus accelerating the process of illness and aging.

Note: In looking for an autopsy picture to use on my blog post I happened upon this picture and then followed it to the main website. If you want to see and feel what a medical team does to a Body that is still alive, but can’t move, then visit this site.

I must warn you, the pictures are very graphic and disturbing.

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