Vlog SV-101 – The Empath’s Dilemma

My name is John Rieger but I also go by my pen name, Shenreed. I’m an empath, so I know what an empath goes through. Years ago, when my personal and small business world collapsed, I became frustrated with my life and traditional dogma and began my spiritual journey, my search for truth, love, and the meaning of life.

My metaphysical journey is an eclectic blend of science and spirituality. where I’n both the observer and the subject, and when I think I have a solution, I submerge myself in the experience to know if my hypothesis is accurate and valid. After years of trial and error, I discovered that my so-called negative feelings and emotions were not the cause of my problems and issues, or my flaws or weakness, but were my power, and were directly related to my denials of them. The problem with denial was that my problems and issues were being reflected to me. When I ended my denials and replaced self-hatred with self-love, my reality shifted. I was excited to share the tools and insights I experienced and subsequently wrote and published three books, as well as creating my website and blogging.

The intent of these vlogs is to help other empaths understand and heal their emotions and issues and to empower themselves. While we all have different experiences, the so-called “negative emotions” are universal. Some of the issues empaths have are that they believe they have to control their feelings and emotions to make others happy an be accepted. They are also targeted by unloving Narcissists using gaslighting techniques to manipulate and control them

Modern medicines “mental health” approach is of no use to an empath. The approach they use is basically cognitive therapy to maintain a “positive” attitude and failing that, they put you on prescription drugs. With no real help, empaths turn to food, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, work, exercise, pets, hobbies, religion, etc, to help them cope with their reality.

Empaths have gifts and talents and by far, the most important one is the ability to feel the presence of loving and unloving energy. They also have the ability to feel what another person is experiencing and feeling, and often take on these emotions and then feel drained. They also possess psychic abilities like clairvoyance, clairaudience, etc., but fear to share them.

These are just some of the issues and topics I’ll be addressing in my vlogs that I hope will serve as an inspiration and a self-help tutorial to enable Empaths to begin to understand and heal and empower themselves. I plan to host them on YouTube and BiitChute and my websites. For quick reference, they will have a title and an ID number. I also plan on making them from 3-5 minutes in length, as I’d like them to be more of a “food for thought” tutorial where you need to begin to put the pieces of the puzzle together for yourself.

Well, it’s taken me a while, but I finally did it. This is my first Vlog and making the video was, and is, a learning curve, so forgive any amateurishness. The videos are going to be a replacement for the fourth book, “The Empath’s Dilemma” that I was going to write 7 years ago, but never did for multiple reasons. I’ll be creating a Table of Contents on my website shenreed.com  where you can also get more information on these videos.

Says 423 – Journeys from the Heart Centre (eBook 1 Free)

 

Journeys from the Heart Centre Meditation as a tool for healing and Self-empowerment

My first book is free in the following eBook formats: PDF, ePub and Kindle Mobi.

You can either download it from any internet eBook provider or from my website, Shenreed.com

 

 

Table of Contents
• Introduction
• Chapter 1 – Wellness and Self-empowerment Tools
• Chapter 2 – Breath, Grounding, Relaxing, and Centering
• Chapter 3 – Denial Based Meditation
• Chapter 4 – Non-Denial Based Meditation
• Chapter 5 – Visualization Journeys
• Chapter 6 – Animal Guides and Totems
• Chapter 7 – Clearing your Astral Attachments
• Chapter 8 – Exploring Past Lives
• Chapter 9 – Life Guides and Higher Self
• Chapter 10 – Conscious Channeling
• Chapter 11 – Feeling, Healing and Understanding Emotions
• Chapter 12 – Multi-dimensional Journeys
• Chapter 13 – Other Journeys
• Conclusion
• About the Author
• Appendix

Says 399 – Humanity going in Circles

I channeled this poem a few years back. It really feels appropriate now, given the covid-19 virus and the global situation resulting in a financial and a personal liberty crisis. How governments, the medical establishments and the media all over the world are using the covid-19 virus as a distraction, a diversion to obtain their true intent. They’re feeding society part-truths and instilling fear and panic in most of the population with the continued onslaught of propaganda, to the point that most people are willing to give up their freedom on the promise that the government “authorities” and medical “experts’ know best and will take care of them.

poem is taken from my second book.

Going in Circles

Circling the tree
running round and around.
Looking for answers
That can’t be found.

Bewildered and confused
they toil and they strife.
Trying to find
the meaning of life.

While silently sitting
rubbing hands in glee.
Is the evil bushwhacker
hiding up in the tree.

Watching his subjects
beat a path in the ground.
Feeding them part truths
calling them valid and sound.

And so they do run
all day and all night.
Not even aware
of their sorry-full plight.

Joined in commonality
for this it is true.
As are the animals
caged in a zoo.

Afraid to challenge
or unable to think.
In circles they’ll go
until they all sink.

And ponder how life
has passed them all by.
Now comes to late
a tear in their eye.

Channeled by – John Rieger/Shenreed – 2002 Jan. 19

Says 285 – Nothings changed in 25 years – SSDD

I’m in the process of compiling the material I have for my next book, (The Empaths Dilemma) and I thought I’d join a couple of Empath and a lightworkers groups, just to get a feel for what is happening, as it’s been years since I’ve been in any group. I was “removed” from both Empath groups, but re-instated in one. I made a few posts and commented on others, but I have to say that I felt that only two or three people were at what I would call their “quickeing” stage, where I could feel the lights in their Mind and Heart flicker. The rest are still asleep, although all would disagree. Unfortunately, the ones that were open, happened to be in the group that I was deleted from without even a warning.

Sad to say, it’s really no different than what was going around 25 years ago. Light workers are still sending out love and light, and Empaths are busy grounding and protecting themselves.. and both are asking for prayers and energy. I feel that the biggest obstacles people in both groups have is –
(1) They still cling to their religious beliefs, and as such, they think they KNOW what love is, oblivious to the role that denial plays.
(2) They also cling to what they have been taught, either an alternative healing modality, or recycled “quick fix” solutions.
(3) All are afraid to stray from the herd, as they feel safe and supported.

So tonight, I silently removed myself from the groups and will focus on gathering the material for my book.

Says 260 – Shenreed Book Excerpts up and running

Well it’s taken a bit longer than I thought, but I finally got the excerpts for my three books on line. First I had to find a simple CSS – HTML responsive website template. I found what I needed at  Creative Blog that I then modified to suit my needs. Next was the learning curve as to how I was going to code it and work it into my website.  After that, was collecting the text for each book that I wanted to use, and then adding them to the various templates. Finally, there was the checking of the links, and then uploading and verifying. All in all, I only had three minor issues that were fixed in five minutes. In total, there are 42 excerpts that I hope will give readers a “feel” for what the books are about.

You can check out the new “excerpt” page, and the related pages at this link…  Shenreed

Says 258 – Unexpected visitors

2017 March 17 – 8:40 pm.  I begin channeling and writing.

So what do you, Baal, and Lucifer want?

WE WANT YOU, YOU LITTLE ASSHOLE. WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE – GOD? FUCK YOU – YOU CAN’T DEFEAT US AND YOU KNOW THAT AND YOUR PETTY BOOKS ARE NOT GOING TO HELP ANYONE. WE’LL SEE TO THAT. HA, HA, HA.

If that were a truth, then you wouldn’t be here, trying to stop me would you?

YOU THINK YOU ARE SO FUCKING SMART DON’T YOU. YOU STILL BELIEVE AND TALK THE SAME OLD SHIT THAT YOU DID YEARS AGO.

Well you couldn’t stop me then and you won’t stop me now.

WE’LL SEE ABOUT THAT. WE AREN’T FINISHED WITH YOU, YOU LITTLE PRICK. A THORN IN OUR SIDE, BUT YOUR TIME OF BEING A NUISANCE THAT WE HAVE HAD TO PUT UP WITH IS ABOUT TO END.

Oh, so you couldn’t stop me and so now you are saying you were happy to put up with me, calling me a nuisance. If I was just a nuisance, then you BIG BOYS would not be trying to stop me again. So what you are saying is all bullshit, like usual.

YOU FUCK HEAD. YOU THINK YOU ARE SO FUCKING SMART AND YOU KNOW WHAT WE ARE THINKING AND DOING. YOU ARE A TOOTHLESS ASSHOLE AND WE ARE GOING TO FUCK YOU OVER AND PUT AN END TO YOU ONCE AND FOR ALL.

You’ve said that before. What’s the matter? Don’t you remember? You couldn’t do it then and you can’t do it now. You don’t have the power you once had over me. That is long gone as I can see and feel you for what you are. Denial is your game and so is control.

BULLSHIT!!!! FUCK YOU – YOU FUCKING KNOW IT ALL. WE’LL SEE WHO IS IN DENIAL AND HAS THE POWER AND IS IN CONTROL. LOOK AROUND YOU. THE WORLD IS ALMOST OURS AND YOU CAN’T DO A FUCKING THING ABOUT IT. HA. HA. HA. HA.

Keyword, “almost.” That means you don’t have the power to take control and have absolute power. Because if you did, you egg heads would not be here trying to stop this little nuisance as you called me. Right?

FUCK YOU!!! YOU  PRICK!!! YOU PUT WORDS IN OUR MOUTHS AND TWIST THINGS AROUND TO SUIT YOU. IT DOESN’T WORK. HA, HA, HA, WE ARE NOT GOING TO WASTE ANYMORE TIME ON YOU. YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT.

If I wasn’t worth it, you wouldn’t be here in the first place, would you?

I feel they are leaving. I’m laughing as I can see through their game of intimidation, but denial has no power against truth.

Where did you go?

What? No come backs or threats?

Interesting, I was at my computer desk and using my pendulum to contact my guides to get an answer as to what I need to do with the idea of adding selected excerpts from my books to my website, either on my main site or using Dokuwiki.

The pendulum (when in contact with my guides) usually responds quickly and in a yes or no manner that leaves no doubt, but this time the pendulum moved slowly and also had mixed and conflicting answers, so I knew something was up and that’s when I felt the presence of Baal and Lucifer and started writing what you just read. BTW, any evil entity that has either directly typed their response to me from another person’s computer, or that I have channeled, has always spoken and typed in CAPITAL LETTERS. I guess they feel it is more powerful.

After they were gone, I got in touch with my guides and the answer was a definite “yes” to add them to my shenreed Book website. So that is what I’ll be working on over the weekend.

Says 208 – Mental Health issues are NOT a Chemical imbalance

says-208-mind<Quote> The Chemical Imbalance Theory Might Be Incorrect <end quote>

I’m posting this it relates to the work I’ve done that I share my books in addressing Emotional issues, and that it also supports my low opinion of the present psychiatric and psychology profession and the Mental Health industry, 

MAYBE…? It’s not a fucking MAYBE, it’s a fact, and has a lot to do with medical dogma  and the medical prostitutes (aka doctors) of the pharmaceuticals will deny it and keep pushing the DRUGS as long as they are getting paid. Medicine is not about healing, in finding and treating the CAUSE, but in treating the SYMPTOMS and getting and keeping CUSTOMERS, as that means more….. MONEY.

Of course the other issue is that the MEDICAL ESTABLISHMENT and the so-called learned “professionals” that write the medical bibles, still believe that emotions are a MENTAL illness and related to chemical imbalances in the Body, that just so happens to be what the pharmaceuticals need to sell their poison and create customers. DAH! So are they just STUPID, or are they just pretending they are STUPID… ?

<Quote> “The cause of mental disorders such as depression remains unknown. However, the idea that neurotransmitter imbalances cause depression is vigorously promoted by pharmaceutical companies and the psychiatric profession at large.”<end quote>  (Source)

The second reason I’m posting this is that I’ve not been very active on my blog, due in part to a Motor Vehicle Accident I had back in 2014 Dec. 03. “So what’s the link?” you may ask. Well I’ve been working on healing another aspect of me, my Body, for a while, and after getting my books published, that journey began in earnest with the accident. What I’m finding is that the so-called medical establishment has just about as much knowledge about healing the body as they do about the Emotions and they generally treat them the same… with DRUGS…

 

Says 195 – IRS Tax withholding issues and solution

irs formsWhen I signed up to get my books published with CreateSpace, Amazom, and then later with IngraMSpark and Smashwords, (US Companies) they all had the infamous IRS wanting to claim 30% of any royalties I made, even though I am a Canadian and Canada has a free trade agreement with the US. Originally, they all posted links to IRS and the various ITIN (International Tax Identification Number) forms I had to fill out and get approved in order to avoid this money grab.

I just so happened to be researching this topic on the web and came across Crystal Stranaghan’s website and how to make this process a whole lot simpler by getting an EIN (Employer Identification Number) in as little as 10 minutes. I called the number she had listed, and low and behold, after a 10 minute wait and a 10 minute interview, I had my EIN number.

says 195 bag of booksI had no problem using it with CreateSpace and Amazon, and Smashwords will also accept it, but it needs to be in a print format. The only bug-a-boo was with IngramSpark that wanted me to get a GST (Canadian Goods and Services) number and fill out forms as if I was a retailer going to be buying books to sell. DAH! (Shaking my head) Why do they think I chose them as a POD (Print book) distributor so that they could distribute them to wholesalers or retailers globally. I write books, I don’t plan on carrying a bag of books and knocking on doors all over Canada or the world trying to sell them.

I sent them an email along with copies of the CreateSpace and Amazon approval for them to examine and maybe incorporate into their POD services. I’m waiting for their “favorable” response, as I’d hate to go through all that rigamarole just for one distributor.

Says 192 – My Print and eBooks are now Global…

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Books – global

Whew!!!    What a journey! Writing the books was one thing, then came the editing and more editing and proofing and more editing until I felt they were ready for print. Then it was uploading them to CreateSpace, and making revisions until they passed their on-line reviewer. Next I ordered a print proof copy, and then more editing, and more print proof copies until finally I felt they were acceptable. Now they were ready to to be sold by CreateSpace and Amazon on-line.

Createspace and Amazon are connected, but.. and it’s a BIG but.. they don’t really serve the brick and mortar retail stores, as everything is done on line. So now I  turned to IngramSpark another POD publisher, to get my books into retail stores around the globe. That was  another frustrating learning curve, as what worked for CreateSpace, didn’t work for IngramSpark. Nothing major, but a pain in the butt none the less. Frustrated, I put that project on hold and focused on getting my eBooks out.

There again it was a learning curve as the formatting that worked for my print books now had to be basically scrapped and each book re-formatted, including images. Not only that, they had to be formatted for kindle and ePub. That meant downloading and installing eBook editors for both formats, and learning how to use them. Not having the Kindle ebook or an iBook or Nook, I also needed to download and install eBook viewers. Next I had to upload my revised books (in a PDF format) to an online converter and download and review and make the necessary changes.  And then repeat the process until they looked good. Next I had to upload them to an on-line validator to see if they passed… and if they didn’t it was back to the drawing board.

Once the  eBooks had the green light, it was off to Amazon and also IngramSpark, that I had put on hold. My initial plan was to have CreateSpace and Amazon handle the on-line POD print books and the Kindle eBook, and have Ingram Spark handle all the retail stores and the ePub eBook format.  Amazon wasn’t an issue, but IngramSpark was, not so much with the eBooks, but with the print books and trying to understand what they required, as while their computer program would say there was a problem, it only in general terms, and didn’t give any specifics. So where to look? Frustrated, I put IngramSpark on hold again and looked to Smashwords for my ePub eBook distribution, as I felt that I could always use CreateSpaces expanded distribution if I couldn’t get the print books accepted at IngramSpark.

Smashwords was yet another learning curve, but I managed to get my books approved after some “political” nit picking things were resolved, like deleting active reference links to Amazon, which I did, as the names and titles were still there. When it came to  deleting my pen name and copyright issues,  I refused to make any changes, as to abide by their “rules” meant not only editing my print and eBooks and re-doing all my book covers, but also applying for new ISBN numbers, and that I wasn’t prepared to do, and so they finally agreed to let them pass – pending my final approval.

I then zipped back to IngramSpark and finally got the print book issues sorted out and ordered a copy of each.  What their computer program had originally complained about was not really a problem, as the page numbers were one line outside their optimal parameters, but still well within their print guide lines. The only difference I could see and feel between the books by CreateSpace and IngramSpark  was that IngramSpark used slightly better quality paper that was also slightly thinner, and it affected the book thickness and cover spine, but I didn’t think it was that big a deal that I needed to rework my covered to make them look better.

It was then that I made a coin toss and decided to let IngramSpark handle my Print books, and  print books only, and that I would try Smashwords, to see how they handled my ePub eBook distribution. With that… my print and ebooks were finally ready for GLOBAL distribution..

 

 

Says 177 – Time is flying by.

says 177-timeI can’t believe that it’s almost the end of February. I’ve been busy and yet not. I’ve been working on a lot of things, from formatting and editing my print books to eBooks, and then revising any little details that also apply to my print books. I’m also trying to decide which way to go with distributing my books, and who to use as there is so much conflicting and changing information out there, making a decision is not easy.

At the same time, I’m trying to figure out why I’m still I pain and why I can’t do the things I did before my accident. The physical pain is also slowing me down and even stopping me at times, from working on my books. Not to mention the constant headache and pain in my shoulders that I have to deal with that break my concentration. Between my self-prescribed physiotherapy exercises, stretching and massage, to my bi-weekly massage appointments and weekly chiropractic treatment, it’s also cutting into my book time. Yesterday and then this afternoon, I finally got two MRI scans done on my head, and spine. Hopefully, this will uncover the source of the headaches and pain in my spine, arms and legs. I’m beginning to get discouraged as it’s been over a year since I have done any really exercise and especially cardio, as walking and running would jog my head and give me a head ache, and also affect my legs. And any activities or sports has been put on hold. I’ve never in my life been this inactive. not even close.

Says 171 – eBook Publishing Nightmare.

171 - tower bable eBooksI can’t possible begin to share all that has happened, or not happened, since my last blog post. I thought that getting my books out in print was the hard part, but that is a piece of cake to getting my eBooks published. There are numerous problems and issues and the first is that while CreateSpace is a POD publisher, they are mainly associated with Amazon, and hence, are not looked on by brick and mortar stores as someone to deal with. To get my books into the brick and mortar stores, I need to deal with IngramSpark, and that means a new account, different rules and procedures. So besides this “war” going on in the print book business, it’s also going on in the eBook business and is even more complicated.

But, there is more. Amazon is mainly interested in electronic sales of eBooks, and so eBooks that are sold though Amazon, need to be in either the Kindle or Mobi (both proprietary) formats. Trouble is that while Amazon has over 1/3 the eBook sales, they don’t distribute any eBooks in other formats like ePub, or iBook. So to get my books distributed, I also have to get another distributor like Smashwords of Bookbaby. Of course, all this means that now I need to edit my print books to make them available to all these different eBook formats like, KF8 ( Amazon Kindle) Mobi, ePub, iBook (Apple) LIT, ODF, PDF, HTML. So while my revised print book looks good in a ePub, it’s a mess in Kindle or other formats.

But there’s more… Every eBook needs to have its own ISBN number and each distributor has different rules for metadata, categories, sub-categories, keywords and tags. Also, each distributor has their own marketing plans and programs that you have to investigate before jumping on-board. To say this experience is frustrating, is putting it mildly.

Says 170 – I’m back – kind of, sort of, maybe. :) !

170 - cartoon-man peeps-out-trap-doorI can’t believe that on Dec. 03, it will be a years since my car accident. This summer, not summer, this year, has been a washout, as I’m still going to my Chiropractor and getting massage treatments, while doing my own physiotherapy to expand my range of motion and strength. And while they are helping, it’s been a slow process. I’m still only able to do maybe 25% of what I could do before the accident, and most of it has to do with my whiplash injury that not only affects my neck, but also my back, arms and legs. Moving either my arms or legs in a who knows what manner, will trigger my neck, which then affects the rest of my body. Even walking is limited to a few blocks at most. Besides that, I still have my constant dull headache that doesn’t help the situation. On top of my physical issues, I’m also trying to get my books published in eBook formats and that is turning out to be a nightmare. So while I say, I’m back, that may be short lived, but it is my intent to resume blogging, as I feel it’s time to reconnect.

Says 169 – Books finally published

Well it’s done! After years in the process and numerous revisions and edits, I finally decided that enough is enough, and on 2015 July 27, I officially published my trilogy.
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I self-published them on CreateSpace and by the weekend they will be on Amazon US and Europe, as well as available other distributors and retailers. Now I’m faced with the task of creating the eBook versions, which I hope, will not take too long, or I’ll just have to hire someone to do it for me.

Says 162 – Books Finally Published

look-whats_newWell it’s been a journey to say the least but I’ve finally published my trilogy. I started writing back in 2000 and after4 years, I finished what I thought was my first book. I sent out query letters and submissions to almost a hundred publishers and agents, but had no takers. Discouraged, I put the book aside and carried on doing other things, but still journaling and writing. It wasn’t until 2008, that I decided to divide my original book and expanded the “tools” section that had formed the appendix to create my first book titled, “Journeys from the Heart Centre – Meditation as a tool for healing and self-empowerment,” which I then published as an eBook. I then began to work on my second book, ignoring my original work, as I felt that that would complete my trilogy.

After countless delays and frustrations in tying all three books together, I finally finished them, including a substantial re-vision to my first book that was in response to emails I had received. So now, I need to edit and update my website and then look at getting the manuscripts off to a POD publisher so that they can be printed and distributed as a paperback.
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After that, I’ll be looking at creating a wiki website for my material, as well as cleaning of all the bits and pieces of the material I’ve used in books 1, 2 and 3, and sorting out what I’m going to use for book 4. If you would like a free copy of my eBooks, either in a DOC or PDF format, you can do so at my website.. shenreed.com

Says 151 – I’m back and there are some changes.

151 - Book 2  coverWell having my website hacked was the proverbial straw that broke the camel’s back as I haven’t posted for months. I had been gradually cutting back on posting to my blog for a while and when I did, it was always playing “catch up.”  This put a lot of pressure on me, as I was also trying to finish editing my 2nd and 3rd books so that I could publish them. Having my entire website hacked, make me feel what’s the use, and who really cares anyway, except the creeps that hacked me.

After getting things back on line, I slowly focused on editing my books.  There were a lot of things I had over looked, like checking my grammar and formatting.  I thought I had no grammar errors until I happened to open another Word document that said I had too many errors to continue checking my grammar. This made me wonder, so I divided my books to make them shorter and then corrected the grammar issues. I’m almost there and hope to have them available as free ebooks (PDF or.doc  format) in the next couple of weeks.

151 - Johnny AppleseedI’ve also decided to change what I post on my blog. I have been posting my personal experiences as well as what is happening in the world today, trying to wake people up.  I’m no longer going to do that as becoming aware as to what is wrong with this world , then doing something about it is a personal choice.  Instead, I’m going to use my blog as a means to plant a seed in the minds of those reading it, so that they too can begin to heal their issues and create the reality they desire. This realization came to me as I’ve recently been collecting seeds, and it occurred to me that I need to sow the seeds that I have. Not the physical seeds, like Johnny Apple Seed, but the Word seeds, that will grow and be taken in to change people’s Minds and Hearts. I’m still going to post my personal stuff and any issues I’m going through as well as healings and insights  I experience in creating  a new world reality, Heaven on Earth.

Says 149 – I went to see a Psychic

tarot cards 2013 April 01– I decided to go to a psychic fair in London, Ontario on March 31. I didn’t know why I was going, only that I needed to be there. It was a small fair with different readers and goods for sale. I struck up a conversation with one psychic and decided to have her give me a Tarot Card reading. The last time I had a reading done was over 20 years ago. It was interesting to hear her give me details of what I have been experiencing. She also picked up on the three books I’m in the process of finalizing and publishing. She also gave me information that I wasn’t aware of like this year being the year that I publish my books, that it’s now the right time and that I’ll be meeting a woman and will no longer be alone on my journey.

imprints, programs and beliefsThe biggest message I got from her that was confusing at first as she said that I was to let go of the past or it will consume and follow me. That confused me at as it is totally the opposite of my intent and journey, which is to go into the past and heal it. It wasn’t until I got home and wrote “the past” in my journal that I realized what the past I need to let go of is. What I need to let go of is the World’s imprints, programs and beliefs. I need to focus on creating what I desire and not worry about or try to change, fix or save those that want to live in this reality. New EarthI can’t change the mindset of society, nor can I solve the problems and issues they have collectively created. I can only help those that desire to change and that is only going to happen after the shit hits the proverbial fan, and the present society begins to collapse and the NWO takes over. It’s then that some people will begin to have a shift in consciousness, what I call ”quicken” and desire to awaken. That is where I come in, and that is also when I meet a woman and will no longer be alone on my journey.

Says118 – Avoidance and the unseen role of Denial

I saw a program on TV about a dog whisperer and during his interview, he used the word avoidance along with three other words, fight, flight and surrender that I often use to describe what happens when people get activated into their issues. While those three words describes their actions once they have been activated, it doesn’t describe how they are re-acting when they are not activated and that is where the word AVOIDANCE comes in. When he mentioned avoidance, it really struck a chord in me as it was another piece of the puzzle that I needed to see in a different light. With avoidance, there is also the use of lies, omission as well as outright denial. While I knew that avoidance was a form of denial, I’ve never really associated it with a three other reactions that people have when they are being activated or triggered. When he used the word avoidance, it became blatantly obvious that avoidance is the main method used to avoid having to face what you are denying and not wanting to face, because if you did, you would get activated you then react with the other three choices.

The avoidance I’m talking about isn’t running when you have been activated, but what you are doing and saying to avoid any situation that you know will activate you. Like when you have a fear of heights, water, knives, guns, fire, crowds, conflict, saying no, getting attention, public speaking, etc, and you avoid any experiences that will trigger that issue. There are countless ways and means to avoid things, from moving around or away from something or someone , procrastinating, deflecting, invalidating, keeping busy, using drugs, alcohol, work, sex, exercise, hobbies, crafts, TV, eating, and the list goes on and on. This avoidance also includes all the different forms of lies, omission and denial that a person can use to avoid an unpleasant situation and be activated. I never really felt how avoidance was linked to the unseen role of denial, but it hit home as I saw how I have been procrastinating and avoiding finishing my books.

Says 79 – Editing book 2 realizations

It’s funny how you can read or listen to something several times and not pick up on the mistakes. There was one topic that I wrote where I noticed that I was switching between different subject pronouns like, I, you, we and they, all in the same paragraph. I was staying on topic, but using the different pronouns made it confusing.

The other thing was that I thought my last edit would be the final one, yet as I’m going through it again, I’m not only picking up sentence structure and grammar errors, but also errors in content, where I missed or added a word that changed the meaning of the sentence. I only noticed it a couple of times, but it was important and I’m glad I caught it when I did. I’m also wondering what other things have I missed?

Ahhhh, I just heard, “You were too busy trying to type what you were reading from your journals and remembering. Your fingers were not keeping up with your Mind and you were not focused on sentence form and structure at the time. Also the program you are using auto-completed some words, thereby giving the sentence a different meaning .”

Says 77 – Re-focusing on eBook 2 – final edit

2012 Aug 07 The past few days I have begun proof reading and re-editing eBook 2 – My Journey – Three Levels of Healing. The present website version is still v1.9 but I’m now working on v4.3. In this edit, I’m mainly looking for and punctuation errors but I’m re-phrasing, and adding or deleting the odd word or words from the last edit. It’s amazing, as no matter how many times I edit it, there is always something that I missed. I wrote the material, so while my eyes scan what is written, I know what I said or wanted to say in my Mind. I’ve been using Natural Reader a free text to speech program to do my recent editing and that too is now becoming somewhat ineffective as I’ve listened to my material several times. I’m using Natural reader mainly to listen to how my words flows, while also using my eyes to spot what I think are punctuation errors.

It would be nice to have another person that has never read my work, do an edit, but I can’t afford a professional one so I’ll just have to do the best I can. So what it it’s not grammatically “perfect,” according to some English language rules. It’s interesting that even though society puts emphasis on good grammar and spelling, we can still read and understand what the writer meant if the spelling is terrible.. Here is an internet example. You can still read bad spelling http://www.matchdoctor.com/blog_41652/you_can_still_read_bad_spelling.html

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno’t mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it

I’m thinking that when I finish eBook 2 and Book 3, that I’ll also redo my website and have it so that if anyone wants my published eBooks, (1, 2, and 3) that they will have to email me and I will email it to them. I’ll have to wait and see what happens when I go to get the books published in print through a POD publisher, and how the eBooks will be handled. I’m not looking at making money (or at least, as little as possible) off the printed books, and would certainly still like to have the eBooks distributed for free.

Says 47 – Working on finishing editing Book2

May 01 I’ve been working on editing Book 2 and I’m now up to chapter 19 and 144 pages (8.5×11 pages) I’m trying to put a push on it as I plan to be leaving Regina to head back to Ontario in the early part of June. Before I do, I also plan to take a short trip up to Edmonton, Alberta, then maybe head up to the Yukon just to have a look at the countryside and say that I’ve been there done that. From there I plan to head down to Vancouver and then take the fairy over to Vancouver Island and take a short tour of the Island before beginning my trip back to Regina. Once I’m back in Regina, I’ll pack up all my stuff and then make my way back to Ontario. I plan to drop in to a couple of friends before I make my way back to Woodstock, or area, where I plan to rent a room. Where I’ll go from there, I don’t know.

Says 23 – Finally finished editing book 2 and 3 intro’s

2012 March 05 Today I think I’ve finalized my introductions to books 2 and 3. I hummed and hawed, postponed and labored for years in trying not to repeat myself in my introductions, and to make each book a standalone read like my first book. This obsession also contributed to my having what is commonly known as writers block. It finally dawned on me that I’ve deliberately written a trilogy, and so it stands to reason that some parts of the introduction need to be repeated so that the reader will know what is going on, and for the book makes sense.

I also transferred the text to my MS-Word documents and then did some re-editing to get them to fit into the page format that I had previously set up, as I didn’t want to go through that process again as it’s been a few years and I’ve forgotten how I did it. I only know that I had a hard time setting it up in the first place.