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Says 270 – New Cause for Depression – NOT

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Unexpressed emotions cause a chemical imbalance in the body, not the other way around. – Shenreed

When I first saw this post on my Facebook page and the caption I thought FINALLY….. …… the truth be known. It’s not a chemical imbalance, but an allergic reaction to ABUSE and BULLSHIT.  But then when I opened the link – DAH! Surprise….. It’s not ABUSE and BULLSHIT… it’s INFLAMMATION, which in reality, is a part-truth as that assumption is also BULLSHIT. Because the current anti-depressant DRUGS are not working and have serious side-effects, it’s an attempt to get people with unresolved mental/emotional issues to take anti-inflammatory drugs that are also known to have serious side-effects. But, because it is a NEW and different approach it is being heralded as a medical breakthrough in health care industry.

A patient cured is a customer lost – Shenreed

All this is just moving from one drug (chemical) to another without really looking for the CAUSE. Modern medicine focuses on treating symptoms and not addressing the root cause of an issue because there is no MONEY in a patient that is healed. Even inflammation, the new “boogie man” that the so-called medical establishment is pointing its fingers at is not the cause of illness, as inflammation is the body’s response and attempt to heal itself from an injury or infection, characterized by pain, swelling, redness and heat.  Anti-inflammatory and pain killers just numb the mind to the pain and do nothing to help the body heal. In fact, the body now has to deal the side-effects of the drugs.

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Says 210 – The journey to feel and heal my Body

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says-210 drugsI previously mentioned in post 208, that I have begun working on healing another aspect of me, my Body. I’m not going to into all the trials and tribulations that I’ve gone through since my motor vehicle accident, but I will try to share what I’m going through as of now and the insights I am getting in this journey. One thing that I’ve noticed is that I have as much confidence in the various physical based medical professions in healing the various aspects of the Physical Body as I do with psychiatrists and psychologists in healing the Emotional Body, which, on a scale of 1 to 10, is a 1. In most cases they are fixated on treating the symptoms and not in finding and healing the underlying cause of the illness or injury.  In the case of Psychiatry, it’s the use of drugs or cognitive therapy, and for physical issues, it’s the use of drugs (pain management) or surgery.  Common medical theme for both… DRUGS.

says-210 soft_tissue_injuryAfter the car accident, I suffered a concussion, hearing loss, and massive soft tissue injuries to my neck, arms, shoulders, back, and legs. After 5 months of physio – therapy that almost left me crippled and months of chiropractic treatments and pressure point massages that only offered me short term relief, I was left to my own resources. It was almost 15 months after the accident, and after reading up on bone fractures and the “unknown” fact that they healed quicker than soft tissue damage, that the proverbial light came on, and I realized what the medical problem was, and why my Body wasn’t healing.

With a fracture, the injured part is immobilized for 6 – 8 weeks and then, and only then, do they begin the “gradual” increase in range of motion, flexibility and strength exercises. Dumbass medical professionals think that because there is nothing broken and you, “look ok,” that you should just into doing range of motion, flexibility and strength exercises all at once, and to go for it, with the idiotic no pain no gain attitude. That was the worst thing I could do as my body had numerous torn, stretched and compressed discs, ligaments, cartridge, tendons and muscles that had inflammation and needed time to heal and recover, not suffer more abuse.  Keyword – Inflammation. I then took a month off from doing any form of exercise just to let my Body begin to heal, but I did carry on with Chiro and the new deep tissue massage that I was recently getting from another RMT.

I should mention that I refused to take any pain killers and antibiotics as I have severe reactions and side effects to prescription and OTC drugs. It also doesn’t make sense to hide or dull the pain, and then go out and do something foolish and injury yourself even more because your Mind is numb to your Body’s pain.

To be continued…

Says 111 – The same issues are resurfacing

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2012 Nov. 05 Monday Last night I went downstairs to make supper and I smelt hash/marijuana. I decided to make a quick supper of coleslaw and raw veggies and a dip and took it upstairs to my room to eat it there. I kept my door closed so that it didn’t get any worse but I had a headache for several hours. When I was downstairs, I also noticed that the dirty dishes from last night were still in the sink and on the counter. Not only that, but the toothbrushes and toothpaste are back on the window sill and behind the kitchen sink. As I was eating my supper, I decided to take my old toothbrush and put it on the kitchen window sill along with the others. I have no intention of using it but I hope it will make him think.

This reminds me of my roommates when I was going to DeVry Tech http://bachelors-degrees.devry.ca/ and when I was working before I got married. At that time, all that my roommates seemed to think and care about was getting drunk, drugs, sex, cars and partying. It’s like nothing else in the world mattered except feeling good and doing what gave them physical pleasure and made them happy, even if it was short lived, they just repeated the cycle. They also liked to present the illusion that they were capable of more thought and physical action, but that’s just how twisted their reality was and how they saw themselves as being something they are not. It’s like their mind is in a fog and they can’t seem to see through it, or rise above it by stopping the substance and physical habits that are creating the fog. The only things they can see are what is in front of their nose, and even then, they only see what they want to see.

Hummmmm. As this issue is reoccurring, it means that this is not the real issue. So what is it that I am not seeing? Humm? That I’m different, that I don’t feel like running with the crowd and doing the things that they are doing. Is that why I never had any real male friends and never had that so called, “male bonding experience?” I believe that female bonding is similar to male bonding, where girls and women need to do similar things that men do, just in a feminine way. It’s like a herd and pack mentality where one just follows and mimics the actions of the leader of the pack. Is this like the dance issue, where I was afraid to be me and that I had to be like the others. YES! I think/feel that is it. It’s just another version of the same program.

Says 62 – Another run in with a government agency bureaucrat

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2012 July 06, Today I went to the local ServiceOntario centre the Motor Vehicle agent to get my address changed on my drivers’ license and motor vehicle registration. I got the first woman of three behind the counter and everything went smooth until she finished and asked me if I also wanted to change the address on my OHIP (Health card). I said sure; and as she entered the data into the computer she made some strange faces and told me that my OHIP Health Insurance had been cancelled and that I needed to get a new card to get it reinstated. I said I was confused as I knew they were changing over to new photo ID cards, but not that they were cancelling the old ones. I also said that I have used it the past few months and no one said anything.

Anyway, I didn’t want to be without any health insurance, so I went home and got my birth certificate and SIN card (to PROVE my identity) and went back to the agency and waited in line. As luck would have it, I didn’t get the same woman I went to earlier. Instead I got the second one, the same nasty ignorant woman that I had before when I had a problem with getting my vehicle license for my Honda. Says 57 But I was open to see what would happen this time so I gave her my documents and she filled out the data on her computer and then asked me to sign a form she handed me. She hassled me on my signature going out of the lines and I finally, after two failed attempts, scribbled a miniature signature BETWEEN THE LINES IN SMALL RECTANGULAR BOX. That made her happy, even though it didn’t look like my signature. When all was finished, I said, I’ll like to have my card back so that….. “ But before I even finished, she sarcastically stated that I couldn’t get it back. I was angry at her cutting me off and at her tone of voice. I said calmly. “You never even let me finish what I was saying before you rudely and ignorantly cut me off… Can you listen to what I have to say? She again interrupted and stated belligerently,” You can’t have your card back.”

I wasn’t going to let this die, so now I raised my voice so that everyone in the office could hear me and again repeated myself, “Can I finish what I was saying and will you listen?” But this time, before she could open her mouth, I continued, “I have some important information taped to the back of the card regarding certain drugs that I am allergic to. I want to copy them down so that I can transfer it to the new card when I get it so that if I happen to be in an accident and unconscious and someone goes through my wallet and finds my health card, they will also see what drugs NOT to give me.”

She stared coldly at me and again stated that she can’t return the card. Just then, the third woman in the office chimed in and asked this brain dead bureaucrat if there was something written on the card. The woman replied, yes, there is. The third woman then said, “Why don’t you just give him a photo copy of the health card with his notes on it?” She looked stunned. She then slowly turned, rolled off her stool, and waddled to the photocopier, made a copy, returned to her station and shoved the copy at me. I took it and said in a sarcastic tone, “Now was that so hard?” As I turned to leave, I noticed that the first woman that had previously served me was giving me a dirty look. I glared back at her but didn’t say anything as I knew, she knew what I was thinking and she quickly lowered her head and turned back to her computer monitor. Some people waiting in line smiled as I made my way past them, while others looked pissed off. I smiled at them all.

Says 34 – Letting go of the Old world and creating a new World

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2012 March 30 6:40 am I awoke and was thinking of all the things that are wrong in this world and I began to write a list.

Corrupt government, federal, provincial, and municipal
Religious beliefs and conflict
The wars and military spending
Pharmaceutical drugs and medical care
High gas, food, electrical and housing prices
High CATV, satellite, telephone, cell phone and internet prices
GMO foods and animals
Polluted land, water and air
Chemtrails and government cover-up
Big brother watching you
And the list goes on and on.

I then though, this is way too much to try to fix and that the only way we are going to change things is to let go of it and let it self destruct and then we’ll build a brand new world to rise out of the ashes like the fabled Phoenix. By self-destruct, I don’t mean that the World (Earth) should be destroyed, but that the SYSTEMS that are presently in a position of power be destroyed. When they are gone, along with those that support that system; those that remain can then begin the process of creating a New World with a new blue print of how reality can be when denials are ended.

Says 30 – Tourettes syndrome and the denial of terror

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I was watching a documentary on 20 / 20 about Tourettes syndrome  and I found it interesting that they said that the symptoms usually appeared in children around the ages of 5 – 9 and then carry on into adult life, although it decreased with age.  I watched as they followed a few children around their daily activities and saw how they functioned, as well as how the medical community was dealing with their symptoms that they acknowledged were stress related, for which they gleefully prescribed drugs as a treatment. The children not only had to deal with Tourettes, but also the drugs and their sides effects.  The doctors also suggested that the parents, who were stressed by the child’s outbreaks, should ignore any emotional displays and tantrums that the child exhibits. Even writing this pisses me off. I could just take the fucking doctors and psychiatrists and shake them until their heads fall off.  Ignorant and arrogant fuckers.

The attacks were usually activated by a loud noise, voice, crowd, or a physical touch. The activated person would then respond verbally, or physically, but not in a way that could be understood. By that I mean that they would either cough, bark like a dog, or make other animalistic sounds, or they would howl, tweet, shriek, or utter high pitched notes, snap their fingers,or they would cuss and swear as a form of verbal release. The other form of expression was a physical release (tics) where their body would momentarily freeze up and if it was mild, they would simply go into rolling or blinking their eyes a few times, or they would explode in a variety of convulsive type movements and gestures.  Some would exhibit the symptoms of OCD or ADHD and would repeat physical movements or habits for as long as they were being activated. Others would hit themselves or pull their hair as a form of self-punishment. Still others would express their denied rage by throwing a temper tantrum, or by flying into a verbal barrage of cuss and swear words and gestures aimed at those that they felt were attacking them..

As the documentary progressed I could feel  that it was their denied terror that was moving in the only way that it was allowed any expression in that moment.  Something happened to them as a  child that traumatized them and the only way they could feel safe to release the pressure of the emotions they were feeling was to ACT it out in a way that would not be understood and cause more trauma. Hence, whenever they would be activated by a similar experience to the one that traumatized them, they would go off into their non-sensible verbal and physical emotional expressions.

A few days later, I happened to be chatting with a guy in a facebook group on healing emotions. As he shared his form of emotional release, I immediately knew he had Tourettes. He was very defensive at first, but then admitted his issue and we got into a discussion. He stated that when he was terrified, that total panic would set in and that he would flip out, meaning that his Body would go off into all sorts of physical gymnastics and he would momentarily leave his Body. He said he felt a sense of relief and that it was so good to get out of his Body as what he was feeling was driving him crazy.  He also stated that he felt terror of having to go back, but not as much as he did before he gapped.  This was a man in his 30-40’s and while he said his symptoms were now a lot better than they were as a child, he was still faced with the possibility of flipping out at any time. When asked if he had traced his emotional trauma back to his childhood he became defensive again.  The only reason that Tourettes seems to disappear with age is that is just had years of denial and learned forms of avoiding the situations that triggered the re-action.

This is not the documentary I was watching, but a YouTube video on Tourettes…

Says 10 – Medical & Scientific community and the Body

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Feb 05  Sunday 9:03 am The medical and scientific community have found the ways and means to fix body parts that are no longer functioning with their healthy youthfulness.  The disease and pain that the  Body is holding is treated  with the use of drugs, and when that doesn’t work, it’s surgery, with physicians doing anything from heart to cosmetic surgery, including artificial replacements and organ transplants. All these are ways of extending life by giving the Mind, the Body it wants, while allowing the Mind to continue to deny the  Will and Body, with the Body being the one holding the results of the Minds denials.

 Eventually I see the medical and scientific community coming to a point where they can create an artificial body and just implant the Mind into it, much like an Android, part flesh, part robot creating a society  that has become cold and heartless like the Borg’s on the TV series Star Trek.

11:00 am The mind also uses the body to do things so that it can be distracted from what the Will, (feelings and emotions) is bringing up that it doesn’t want to deal with. In the process, the Body is also forced (be default) to hold the unloving light that Spirit (Mind) is directing at the Will through its denials. Thoughts are energy as are feelings and emotions, and if they are not expressed and released, but denied, they have nowhere to go but back on to the Will and then stored in the Body.

Healing the Body is just as difficult, if not even more so than healing the Will, (Feelings and emotions)  as the Body holds both the denials of the Spirit and Will. It’s like the Body is a slave in many ways, and is dictated to by the Mind.

One cause of disease – many forms.