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Says 80 – A change of Heart?

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2012 Aug 16 This morning at 11:00 am, the property owner knocked at my door to ask if I had found a place to live. I replied that I did and that I’d be moving out at the end of the month. He said, “Okay, that’s good to hear. I just wanted to say that if it doesn’t work out, that you are always welcome back here. I know that we started off on the wrong foot, and that maybe next time we can begin on a new page.”
I said, “Thanks, I appreciate that, and I’ll keep it in mind.” There was a brief moment of silence where I felt he wanted to say more but didn’t, and I didn’t feel I needed to say anything. With that, he turned and slowly walked out of my room, closing the door behind him.

I could have asked him if he had more to say, but at the moment, I felt that that would have pressured and activated him as I felt that he was already on the edge. What he did was as much as he felt safe in doing, and that was a big step for him. Although he didn’t apologize and open up about what was really going on, this was as close as he could get to speaking the truth at that moment.

Says 79 – Editing book 2 realizations

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It’s funny how you can read or listen to something several times and not pick up on the mistakes. There was one topic that I wrote where I noticed that I was switching between different subject pronouns like, I, you, we and they, all in the same paragraph. I was staying on topic, but using the different pronouns made it confusing.

The other thing was that I thought my last edit would be the final one, yet as I’m going through it again, I’m not only picking up sentence structure and grammar errors, but also errors in content, where I missed or added a word that changed the meaning of the sentence. I only noticed it a couple of times, but it was important and I’m glad I caught it when I did. I’m also wondering what other things have I missed?

Ahhhh, I just heard, “You were too busy trying to type what you were reading from your journals and remembering. Your fingers were not keeping up with your Mind and you were not focused on sentence form and structure at the time. Also the program you are using auto-completed some words, thereby giving the sentence a different meaning .”

Says 78 – Bell Canada “Prepaid plan” a rip off.

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2012 Aug 09 Well it took a month to find out that was what told and sold by the Bell Canada rep, was a lie and a scam. That like my post – Says 64 – Rogers “Pay-as-you-go” a rip off and an outrage! Bell Canada is just as bad, if not worse than Rogers, just in a different way. It turns out that the ($10.75/month) prepaid plan that I was on, which stated that local calls were billed at $.10/min was a truth, but only a part truth. I started my Bell cell phone plan on July 07 and on Aug 02, I topped up my account with a $25.00/2 month prepaid amount as it was getting down to the $3.00 make . A couple of days ago I was curious as to how much I had left and it was $24.80. Today, after receiving a long distance plan which lasted maybe three minutes, I again checked my account. I was shocked to learn that I now had $13.40 in my account.

I went back to the Source (A Bell owned electronic store) where I originally got the phone activated and they told me to call #321 and I could find out what the charges were. I tried that but I got was all automated services that were of no help. I then went to the Bell store and talked to the rep and she now told me the real story of my charges.

She said that the $10.75 monthly plan I had signed up for was a MONTHLY fee for the Bell service, but that it did NOT include any airtime. So now from the $25.00/2 month I recently spent to top up my account, $10.75 goes to this month’s service fee and I’ll also be billed another $10.75 next month. That leaves me with a total of $3.50 that is available for airtime during the next 2 months and at $.10/min, that gives me 35 minutes, or a STAGGERING ….. $.714 cents/minute when I take in account the $25.00 I already paid for privilege of using Bell and divide it by the 35 minutes airtime. The next upgrade on the prepaid plan is to pay $50.00/2 months. That would give me $28.50 of airtime and at $.10/min, works out to 280 minutes. Taking the $50.00 and dividing it by 280 minutes, works out that I’ll be paying almost $.18/minute and not the $10 as advertized…

Bell Canada is just another greedy, money hungry business putting it to the consumer because they have our so-called POLITICIANS in their pocket. Canada has the highest cell phone rates in the WORLD. and our F**king politicians see nothing wrong, or they are going to spend more taxpayers money to STUDY the problem, and of course, like they do with the price of gas, they will find nothing wrong… WTF!

UPDATE: 2012 Aug 10 Bell to buy Astral Media Canada would suffer from the highest level of cross-media ownership – meaning that our communications would be controlled by a select few media conglomerates.

Says 77 – Re-focusing on eBook 2 – final edit

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2012 Aug 07 The past few days I have begun proof reading and re-editing eBook 2 – My Journey – Three Levels of Healing. The present website version is still v1.9 but I’m now working on v4.3. In this edit, I’m mainly looking for and punctuation errors but I’m re-phrasing, and adding or deleting the odd word or words from the last edit. It’s amazing, as no matter how many times I edit it, there is always something that I missed. I wrote the material, so while my eyes scan what is written, I know what I said or wanted to say in my Mind. I’ve been using Natural Reader a free text to speech program to do my recent editing and that too is now becoming somewhat ineffective as I’ve listened to my material several times. I’m using Natural reader mainly to listen to how my words flows, while also using my eyes to spot what I think are punctuation errors.

It would be nice to have another person that has never read my work, do an edit, but I can’t afford a professional one so I’ll just have to do the best I can. So what it it’s not grammatically “perfect,” according to some English language rules. It’s interesting that even though society puts emphasis on good grammar and spelling, we can still read and understand what the writer meant if the spelling is terrible.. Here is an internet example. You can still read bad spelling http://www.matchdoctor.com/blog_41652/you_can_still_read_bad_spelling.html

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I’m thinking that when I finish eBook 2 and Book 3, that I’ll also redo my website and have it so that if anyone wants my published eBooks, (1, 2, and 3) that they will have to email me and I will email it to them. I’ll have to wait and see what happens when I go to get the books published in print through a POD publisher, and how the eBooks will be handled. I’m not looking at making money (or at least, as little as possible) off the printed books, and would certainly still like to have the eBooks distributed for free.

Says 76 – I now have a room for Sept 01

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2012 Aug 02 I’ve been watching Kijiji for a few weeks looking for a new place to live. Today I saw a room listed in the city of Brantford, Ont, that’s about 30 minutes from Woodstock. A little further than I wanted to be from Woodstock, but what the heck. I called the number and made an appointment to see the room at 2:00 pm. Just before that, I got an email regarding a furnished Bachelor apartment in Woodstock and I had arranged to see it at 4:00pm.

I drove to Brantford and with the help of my Garmin, http://www.garmin.com/us/ I found the place okay. I met the woman who showed me the room, which was actually the master bedroom that is at the back of the house. It’s quite large (12 x 15) not counting a huge double closet. The bathroom is next door that I’ll be sharing with the other tenant. She showed me the rest of the house and it was quite comfortable. She was very personable and easy to talk with. I told her about the bachelor apartment that I would be seeing at 4:00 pm and told her I’d let her know after I saw it.

At 3:50 pm, I went to see the third floor bachelor apartment but the woman never showed up so I left at 4:15 pm. She didn’t have to show me the apartment as I recognized the place from a few years earlier when I worked at Mel’s Fish and Chips, a nearby business. The place on the corner, next door to the apartment was a tattoo parlor that also sold drug paraphernalia and Goth merchandise. I remember druggies hanging around at all hours, and today was no different. I parked in the back and walked around to the front entrance. It was filthy, with dirt filled carpet, old peeling paint and graffiti on the walls. While I didn’t see a roach in the entrance, when I walked back to the parking lot at the rear of the building, I could smell one coming from the Tattoo Parlor next door on the corner. This is definitely not the place for me.

I went back to my room and called the woman in Brantford telling her that I’d take the room and asked if she wanted the rent tonight, or tomorrow. She said that tonight was fine and that she would like me to meet her husband before I/she decided, just in case there was any problems. I arrived at 7:15pm and left at 9:15 pm. The three of us had a good chat, (seemed like old times) as we talked about and shared similar views on numerous topics. So now, I have a room for Sept 1. I may be able to move in sooner, depending on when the present tenant moves out to live in Toronto, where he going to be working.

It’s a nice trip from Woodstock to Brantford as Hwy 403 is a double lane divided highway. It’s only 43 km (27 miles) and it took only 35 minutes to drive from downtown Woodstock and pull up in front of my future home. So the time and distance isn’t going to be a big issue when I drive into Woodstock to see my daughter /son-in-law and my grandkids.

I haven’t told my present landlords, as I found out that they had been in my room again when I was out this afternoon. I have now put notes in my drawers, closet and fridge that say… ”Fuck off you snoops!” They will only see them when they come into my room and snoop where they have no business being, and if they get pissed off, I’ll know why. As long as they are assholes and snooping, I’ll keep them in the dark about my finding a new place until I’m good and ready.

Says 75 – Evolution not Revolution

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In going through my stuff, I had picked up an old business card from a Doctor I visited when I was out West. I noticed the name of the Health care centre (clinic) that he worked out of at the top of the card, but what caught my attention wasn’t the name, but the caption underneath it that read,

“A Revolution in Health Care”

I thought about it for a few seconds and realized that any REVOLUTION doesn’t really change anything as a revolution by definition is simply a rotation of 360 degrees, a complete circle or cycle ending back at the same point. While it’s true that people, places and things can change with each revolution, what doesn’t change are the basic thoughts, ideas, imprints, programs and beliefs that the people have. When people feel they are being controlled and over-powered, they seek to overthrow those they feel are in a position of power so that they can become the ones in power and in control. So in reality there is only a change in form.

Later I thought that what we need is not a revolution, to overthrow the powers to be, but an evolution, a letting go of all our old imprints, programs and beliefs that will then enable us to create what we really desire in a totally new way, from a new blueprint. Humanity needs to awaken to a new awareness of themselves and all that is around them. To see themselves for who they really are, and not what they think and believe they are and what society presently projects they should be or try to be. They need to become aware that they are a Spiritual Being having a physical experience, and not just a physical Body coping as best they can with the life they are experiencing, and waiting for death to become a spiritual Being and have a better life. Humanities thinking is all backwards.

Says 74 – Courage

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2012 July 30 6:30 am. I was thinking of a discussion I had with a friend on Courage. It doesn’t take courage to pretend that you are OK when you’re not. That’s false courage and the illusion and lie that that they present to others so that they won’t feel week, alone, vulnerable, not good enough, a failure, unlovable, and the list goes on and on. Pretending that one is fine by putting on a false bravado and face to others is also a disguised form of unloving heartlessness toward themselves. By pretending that you have conquered, or are unaffected by your physical adversities, or the things and people in your life that are activating you, you are not only fooling others, but also yourself.

Real courage is not only admitting all the things that you omit, avoid and deny, but to also dig deeper and have the inner strength to not only face your issues, but to mentally, emotionally and physically allow yourself to move what has never been allowed to move, your darkest fear. That is true courage and that is the only thing that will bring light and understanding to what has been denied and in kept in the dark. That is love, unconditional love that can move mountains and give you the life you have only dreamed and hoped was possible.