Says 19 – Hearing loss in left ear and visit to the Doctor

2012 Feb 24 Friday. Back on Feb 03 Says 05  I got an ear infection and I’ve been treating it with olive oil and inserting a small wad of cotton batten to keep the oil in place.  A couple of weeks ago I asked my guides if I needed to go see the Doctor to have my left ear flushed out, and I got the answer, “No.”

My hearing was getting better, but then took a turn last weekend and since then it hasn’t gotten any better and so yesterday, I asked my guides again and I got the answer, “Yes.” I was confused, but I called the Doctor this morning and to my surprise, I got an appointment for 10:30 this morning.

I went for my appointment and before the Doctor examined my ear, I removed the cotton batten wad. He looked in my ear and said there was something stuck in my ear. My first thought (fear) was an insect as what else could it be. He got out his bag of tools and with a tweezer like instrument; he pulled out a wad of cotton batten. I was surprised, but immediately realized it was the cotton batten wad that I thought had fallen out of my ear during my sleep, a week ago. When I woke up, it wasn’t in my ear and I couldn’t find it in my bed so I assumed that it had fallen out and dropped down behind the bed.

The Doc then flushed my right ear and removed a little bit of wax. I asked him if he was going to flush my left ear and he said it was fine, there was no wax in it. I then asked him why I still couldn’t hear with my left ear and he said that the cotton batten wad had been pushed against my ear drum and that it would take a couple of days for things to right themselves. I felt like a dummy, but that also explains why my guides had changed their answer.

Says 18 – Hearing strange clicking sounds

2012 Feb 23 I’ve been hearing a series of clicking sounds coming from the outside wall of my room.  The sound seems to be coming from near the window or the heat register directly under the window. It’s a series of 4 or 5 clicks and then it stops and a few seconds or minutes later, it repeats the sequence. I thought it might be the heat register, but the furnace isn’t on, so that eliminates that idea. I’ve gone to the area where I think the sounds are coming from and either there is no sound, or if there is, it now appears to be coming from my bed.

This has been going on and off for the past couple of weeks and to add to the confusion, it’s not constant as I haven’t heard it for the past hour. It’s also either 4 or 5 clicks, never more, never less and that is unusual also. I’m at a loss to explain what is physically causing it, so my next thought is that it is being caused by something or someone that is not in the physical.  My first thought was that it was an alien, an ET’s but I haven’t investigated that possibly yet as I have been trying to focus on editing the intros to my books.

Says 17 – Past memories of dying

2012 Feb 19 12:30 am Sunday, I just had a memory flashback of not wanting to die and how panicked my Mind was. It was in morbid terror, not wanting to die.  I don’t know where this feeling and image came from as I was just drifting off to sleep when I was startled by it.

A few seconds later I had flashed back to my childhood when my mother tried to drown me and how I felt free when my Spirit was out of my Body,  Hovering above my Body that lay still and motionless in a small bathtub, relieved that it (the hate) was finally over and that now I could have peace.

Then I flashed back to the night I was conceived and again the feelings of not wanting to be here, as there was no love.  Although they were married, my father was basically raping my mother. But this feeling of wanting to leave feels different than the previous one. It’s more like Heart feeling he didn’t want to be here as it was not the love and life he desired, or expected.

Humm, this is getting complicated.