While I said it took me another four years to understand and heal it, (my anger and rage) that was because before I could do that, I needed to heal my fear of being attacked and also my fear of expressing myself, verbally and physically. These steps or levels were needed to be completed before I was ready to express and begin to heal and understand my real anger and rage. Kind of like learning to crawl, then stand, before I could walk.
I share a personal experience dealing with denied anger and rage and the beginning of healing it. It took me another four years to understand and heal it, (my anger and rage) that was because before I could do that, I needed to heal my fear of being attacked and also my fear of expressing myself, verbally and physically. These steps or levels were needed to be completed before I was ready to express and begin to heal and understand my real anger and rage. Kind of like learning to crawl, then stand, before I could walk.
I share a personal experience with a Reiki Master in a one-on-one session that involved a traumatic childhood experience, and why and how denied emotional expression and body pain, combined with guilt have a lasting negative effect on the body, and how it can be healed when the denied emotions are expressed and the guilt attachment is released.
Meditation as practised by Eastern religions and New Agers is based in denial; denial of any so-called negative feelings and emotions that surface. In the course of my journey, I found that meditation could be used as a tool for healing and self-empowerment, but only if it was done in non-denial. Some of the meditation “journeys”, as I called them, were: visualization, animal guides, clearing your astral attachments. past-lives, life guides and higher self, channelling, healing issues and denied emotions, Shamanic and Multi-dimensional journeys.
Fake or false emotions are expressed when a person is activated into one of their fears and they go into either a fight, flight or give up mode. These emotions are aligned with the false judgments that the mind has, that thinks this experience is the same as the original experience. Explaining is just that, re-telling an experience with the false emotions that are associated with it. Real emotions are rarely expressed in adults and you are more likely to see them in a child.
Denial is so prevalent in society that most are not even aware what denial is. If you are not expressing your real feelings and emotions in the NOW moment when you feel them, you’re in denial. As an example, we set ourselves up to be in denial with our standard social greeting… “Hi, how are you?” The standard come back is… “Oh, Fine, and you?” To that, they reply, “Oh fine.“ And with that, both are living in denial.
Guilt is a presence and is not to be confused with love. Guilt has been in the place of love for eons. All religions are based on guilt. Love and truth does not mind being questioned, but unlovingness, guilt and denial do. Christian beliefs in traditions of Santa Claus and the Easter bunny are lies you tell your children. If you told them the truth, guilt would be on you, telling you that you’re unloving.
Whether you admit it or not; empaths are love starved, they want to be loved and accepted. They are attracted to another person that they feel completes or compliments them. In most cases, they attract a narcissist that isn’t real in their feelings and emotions, but is good at acting the part. Being in denial, is what sets an empath up to give their power away.
My journey is a search for truth, love and the meaning of life. While reading numerous books, and coming across part-truths that felt real, something was always lacking. I was searching for something that would connect them, a common thread. When I was introduced to the first book in the RUOW (Right Use Of Will) series by Ceanne DeRohan, I realized what was missing, what I wasn’t seeing. What was common to everything was denial, and that totally changed my journey.
Examines the New Age movement as another form of religion in that real feelings and emotions are denied, in order to be positive and feel good. Its agenda is also similar tothe “mental health” establishment, where they aren’t looking for the cause of one’s so-called “negative” feelings and emotions, but rather address the symptoms with the use of drugs, or cognitive therapy or whatever they can use to make money.
The medical establishment is of no real help to an empath. Psychiatrists and psychologists treat emotions as if they were constructs or aspects of the mind and hence, they use mental based techniques to try to treat emotional issues. Cognitive therapy and having a “positive” attitude and shrugging off (denying) any “so-called” negative feelings and emotions is their solution. If that doesn’t work, they’re quick to either prescribe mind-numbing drugs, or ones that create a high and a false sense of well-being. For true healing, one needs to deal with the mental, emotional and physical issues as they are all connected. Any feelings and emotions that the mind denies, have no place to go except in the body, where they create distress and dis-ease.
Present reality on Earth is actually a dual reality, with loving Essence that desires love, life, truth and freedom, and unloving essence that desires, control, denial, compression and death. It’s this unloving Rage essence that has been, and is, in a position of power, but what is not known is that they are terrified of the power of love, and hence their need to be in control of loving essence. Loving essence tries to be nice to these “otherkin” hoping they will change, and so you have the predator and victim dual reality.
It’s another aspect of “letting go” and releasing ones “attachments’ to the person they feel needs them. When people finally become aware of their circumstances, they need to accept responsibility for their initial choices and deal with the consequences as such. Being in denial, they will try to use the ”oh poor me” tactic to get an empath to do their bidding.
As an empath, you have the innate ability to hear, see and know what others don’t hear, see or know. The other thing is that Empaths want to help others that they see in trouble or about to get into trouble. It’s a frustrating position, and one that is needed in order to “let go” of those that don’t want to see or hear the truth.
When dealing with heartbreak, besides the issue of attachment is one of expectation, and projections. Your point of power is in the present moment, but if your consciousness is in the past, lamenting about what you lost, or projecting into the future and lost hopes, dreams and desire, what you could have had what you expected. Life is a journey, like a river flowing where time and space are moving. What you experience in one moment is not the same, as in the next moment as time and space have moved on, and you can’t go back. Since birth, we have been taught and programmed to believe that our happiness and self-worth depends on people, place and things. When they are taken away, we feel lost and heartbroken.
Besides fear of physical people, places and things, empaths also have fear of non-physical things, one being the word, authority. It begins with our parents, siblings, relatives, friends and moves out for there. Using the present Covid plan-demic as an example of how the government, medical and media use the words “authority” and “expert” as a tool to create the illusion that they have power over those that buy into their fear-mongering tactics, that manipulate herd mentality to follow their dictates.
When people are activated into their issues, they go into denial and re-act by either going into a fight, flight or give up mode. If your imprint is to fight, as soon as you’re activated, your denied anger and rage will be triggered. Hidden under your denied anger and rage is your denied terror; what you are afraid of that triggered you. For an empath, a confusing issue is how do you respond to a psychopath coming at you, or a person that you know is loving, but has been activated and is in denied anger and rage.
Betrayal doesn’t just come to you out of the blue. You have doubts and suspicions, but instead of expressing yourself, you deny and carry on hoping that your intuition is wrong. When a feeling of doubt comes up, your mind is consciously aware of the feeling but denies it. The feeling comes up three times in total. When it’s denied expression the third time, like in the game of baseball, you’re out, your mind is in the gap, and it goes on auto-pilot according to its imprints, programs and beliefs. All this happens in the blink of an eye. The key to healing is in spotting and ending one’s denials.
When you were born, you weren’t born with any religious beliefs or traditions; they were taught to you by your parents and others. Religion, like government, is organized. Religion tries to be a substitute for spirituality and as such, has rules and Belief Systems (BS) that they use to control you. When you identify yourself as etc., “I Am a Catholic,” you accept their BS as a part of who you are, and not as something that you are experiencing.
I begin to explain how the government, through your birth certificate that your parents felt obliged to submit to the government, controls you. Your birth name ie, “Jane Doe”, appears on all government documents as “JANE DOE.” The Government is a fictitious entity, an artificial construct and not a person. The secret to the success in being society controllers, is that they have made you believe that Jane Doe is JANE DOE, and that you have to comply to their rules and mandates.
Denied anger and rage is the most common form of expression. The anger and rage that is easily identified is where there are verbal threats and/or physical violence. What is harder to identify is when it’s disguised as passive aggressive, where they “act” loving, kind and nice, but underneath it all is their wanting to manipulate and control you. For an empaths that feels the unlovingness, what they need to do, but what is also one of the hardest things to do, is to give yourself the benefit of the doubt by asking the person, “What is your intent?”Doing that clears the air and their control over you. Narcissists are great ones at using passive aggressive techniques.
As an empath, part of your fear and terror is that you are unloved, rejected, threatened and attacked, just to name a few issues. Those that are attacking you might be physically aggressive or passive aggressive. Their attack is two-fold. One is to have you activated into your denied fear so that they can manipulate and control you so that they can feed on the love energy that you are denying. And the second reason is that as long as you are in denial and fear their disproval and wrath, you will not express the love that you are, as the presence of love terrifies them.
The most common heartbreak for an Empath is the lack of love, of being accepted. Empaths try to fit in, but unbeknownst to them, they’re trying to fit in with people that are not loving. The real problem is that you’re afraid to challenge the unloving people that you are trying to fit in with, that are controlling and manipulating you. Instead, you try to be like them and that doesn’t feel good either.
Empaths forget that they’re a spiritual being having a physical experience and are not what society (the system) identifies them as. By buying into a false identity, like “I am a carpenter” etc, you set yourself up to the belief that what you are experiencing is who you are, and in that, you judge your self-worth by how much money you earn to make a living.
There are many forms of anger and rage. Most of the anger and rage that is expressed is denied anger and rage. While you may be a person of loving essence, when you are in denial, the anger and rage that you express is unloving. You do have loving anger and rage, but the difference between the two is that unloving anger and rage wants to attack and control another, whereas loving anger and rage is there to protect you from unloving anger and rage.