Imprints, programs and beliefs all are responsible for the altered persona that we take on to live our life and that be believe to be the true expression of who we are. When these are slowly stripped away, the real and authentic you is revealed and you then begin to live the life you desire, not the false one that you were programmed with.
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Says 273 – The false idols people worship
In this increasing dumber down society, the role of the media as a tool to control the masses is becoming clearly evident. Distraction is the name of the game, and electronic perception becomes reality. With the exponential development of electronics, there seems no end to the ways and means that the media can use to program whatever message they want into the mindset of the masses.
If the thousands of religions wasn’t enough to worship an external power and distract them from their daily lives, they now have a myriad more to choose from. Don’t get me wrong as I am far from religious, but here are a few images that show how people have become distracted and are fervent followers and worshipers of people, places or things that they hold above themselves. Take away their idol; what gives them a sense of identity and commonality with others of the same beliefs, and their world collapses.
Says 109 – Insight in Dance lessons.
2012 Nov 02 I was thinking of my first day at school and how my dad told me that I would be okay if I just listened and watched and learned to be like the other kids. I couldn’t understand or speak a word of English, as all I knew was German, so I had no idea what was being said or being asked of me. It was to say the least, traumatic. So I took my dad’s words to heart and all my life, I constantly compared myself to others and if I didn’t have, or couldn’t do what they could do, I berate myself that I was not good enough, stupid, a loser, or whatever. I even went so far as to judge my parents and family as I also compared them to other families. Why not? I was part of this family that was not like the others as we lacked this and that, and my program said that this was a reflection on me. As a result, I was never happy and always trying to live up to unobtainable expectations, trying to be like others instead of being me.
The flip-side of this is that when I was being me that brought me joy and happiness, it made others unhappy, envious and hate me. So now my program said, don’t be you as it makes others unhappy, be like the others. Don’t show off your talents and strengths that others don’t have. To facilitate this hideous self-hatred program, I’d deny and sabotage my gifts and talents, and downplay my strengths so that I would be like the others and they would like and accept me. But of course, having already shown my true colors, they were always watching and reminding me not to be me. What a sick and twisted game I played on, and with myself, all the result of this one program that was instilled and imprinted in my young, innocent mind, when it was filled with fear, doubt and confusion on that first day of school.
I feel that these dance lessons are yet another step in my de-programming myself, not totally, but getting to some core root issues. While I still tried to be like the others in that, I was part of a group that was taking dance lessons; I was not trying to be like the others. What I learned was what the teacher was teaching the whole group and how I applied, what I learned was up to me. Others did what they did, and I did what I thought was right and what felt good, and if I was confused and the steps didn’t feel right then I’d get help from the teacher. My dance class last night was fun. Sure I and my partner made mistakes but we also learned and corrected them and there were moments when we were in our own little world, oblivious as to what others were or were not doing. I was being me and enjoying myself and not trying to be like the others, or comparing myself to them.