While you make think your self-hatred and judgments are not a big deal, but I assure you they are, as you’re hating and cutting off parts of your being. As a Spiritual being having a physical experience, you are casting off parts of your emotional Essence. The more you deny, the more you cut off and soon, you’ll remember less and more importantly, you will begin to feel less. Feeling less gives you the illusion that your denials are working, as you aren’t feeling what you used to feel. That’s not the truth, as you’re just too stupid to realize that you‘ve lost big parts of yourself. (Been there, done that). When you’re ignorant, you don’t know what’s really going on, and you’re just going on your mind’s imprints, programs and beliefs that it thinks is the right thing to do.
These denied emotional parts of you just don’t go away, they are still with you. Emotions are energy and when they can’t be expressed, they have no place to go except into your body where they create dis-ease, pain and illness. Journaling is a good way to begin healing, by writing down all the things that you hate about yourself. When you read what you wrote, you begin to see how you’re really talking to yourself.