Says 30 – Tourettes syndrome and the denial of terror

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I was watching a documentary on 20 / 20 about Tourettes syndrome  and I found it interesting that they said that the symptoms usually appeared in children around the ages of 5 – 9 and then carry on into adult life, although it decreased with age.  I watched as they followed a few children around their daily activities and saw how they functioned, as well as how the medical community was dealing with their symptoms that they acknowledged were stress related, for which they gleefully prescribed drugs as a treatment. The children not only had to deal with Tourettes, but also the drugs and their sides effects.  The doctors also suggested that the parents, who were stressed by the child’s outbreaks, should ignore any emotional displays and tantrums that the child exhibits. Even writing this pisses me off. I could just take the fucking doctors and psychiatrists and shake them until their heads fall off.  Ignorant and arrogant fuckers.

The attacks were usually activated by a loud noise, voice, crowd, or a physical touch. The activated person would then respond verbally, or physically, but not in a way that could be understood. By that I mean that they would either cough, bark like a dog, or make other animalistic sounds, or they would howl, tweet, shriek, or utter high pitched notes, snap their fingers,or they would cuss and swear as a form of verbal release. The other form of expression was a physical release (tics) where their body would momentarily freeze up and if it was mild, they would simply go into rolling or blinking their eyes a few times, or they would explode in a variety of convulsive type movements and gestures.  Some would exhibit the symptoms of OCD or ADHD and would repeat physical movements or habits for as long as they were being activated. Others would hit themselves or pull their hair as a form of self-punishment. Still others would express their denied rage by throwing a temper tantrum, or by flying into a verbal barrage of cuss and swear words and gestures aimed at those that they felt were attacking them..

As the documentary progressed I could feel  that it was their denied terror that was moving in the only way that it was allowed any expression in that moment.  Something happened to them as a  child that traumatized them and the only way they could feel safe to release the pressure of the emotions they were feeling was to ACT it out in a way that would not be understood and cause more trauma. Hence, whenever they would be activated by a similar experience to the one that traumatized them, they would go off into their non-sensible verbal and physical emotional expressions.

A few days later, I happened to be chatting with a guy in a facebook group on healing emotions. As he shared his form of emotional release, I immediately knew he had Tourettes. He was very defensive at first, but then admitted his issue and we got into a discussion. He stated that when he was terrified, that total panic would set in and that he would flip out, meaning that his Body would go off into all sorts of physical gymnastics and he would momentarily leave his Body. He said he felt a sense of relief and that it was so good to get out of his Body as what he was feeling was driving him crazy.  He also stated that he felt terror of having to go back, but not as much as he did before he gapped.  This was a man in his 30-40’s and while he said his symptoms were now a lot better than they were as a child, he was still faced with the possibility of flipping out at any time. When asked if he had traced his emotional trauma back to his childhood he became defensive again.  The only reason that Tourettes seems to disappear with age is that is just had years of denial and learned forms of avoiding the situations that triggered the re-action.

This is not the documentary I was watching, but a YouTube video on Tourettes…

Says 29 – 2012 Three Days and Nights of Darkness

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I just watched a YouTube video and was reminded of a message that I got way back in 1995. This picture on the left reminds me of what I saw as the beginning or dawn of a New World. You will know what I mean after you watch the first part of the Video. Also, there are other videos that relate to it.

Humm?… The YouTube video seems to have been removed, but luckily I was able to download a copy.

Like I said, it’s interesting that when I viewed this video I was reminded of a similar message that I got back in 1995, about the three days of total darkness that was to mark the beginning of the new age and that was to last for 17 years before the next shift would occur.. Like I said, this was back in 1995 and I never really gave it more thought or related it to 2012, in fact I had forgotten about it until I saw this video…

It seems coincidental that 17 years after 1995 brings us to the year 2012 and back then, I hadn’t even heard of the Mayan calendar, and the galactic alignment that science now knows is about to happen. Now I’m wondering if I may have misinterpreted my original message. Maybe instead of lasting for 17 years, it was to be within 17 years, which would make it coincide with 2012. Things that make me say.. Hummmmmm?

From what I remember of the message I got, we, I mean our solar system will be passing through what is called the “Null Zone.” It’s like what we experience when we drive on the highway and come upon dense fog, or a blinding rain or snow storm, that completely blocks our visibility for a period of time until it moves past us. This will be similar, but even more dramatic, in that like she said, what we will experience is total darkness, no electricity, no communication, everything will be shut down for three days and three nights. The only thing that will give us light is fire

I also got that the three days and nights will give people a lot of time (without modern physical distractions) to reflect on their lives (Soul Searching). I didn’t get anything on us or Earth ascending per say, but I did get that a lot of people are going to die, and many will be by choice. Those that don’t die will come away with a new lease on life, so to speak. Not to say that all that remain will be for love and life, but their power base will have shifted and they will not be, or stay in the position of power they once had.

I’ll try to dig up my original message from my journals. I guess it’s right time for this message to be brought to the masses… Now if it manifests, that question will only be answered when the time comes.

Says 28 – Star Gates – portals to other suns and planets.

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2012 March 21 A couple of weeks ago I had a vision/ feeling that the sun was a portal, and that there was a connected from our sun to other suns, and even galaxies, and that they were all inter connected, like a woven tapestry. That even the planets had portals within their solar system and that they were also connected to the sun.

On Mar 13, I went to the movies and saw John Carter, and guess what? it was about being teleported between Earth and Mars that was connected by some energy tube.. On March 14, I chatted with a friend on Skype about the portals I had envisioned, and also on the movie John Carter

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25CmSCVLZG8&feature=player_embedded

March 21, I find the following link and now I’m really wondering what is going on.. Things that make you go Hummmmmm?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZT9c6wMSvM

Says 27 – The cause of all illness and aging is denial

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2012 March 19, The present issues I’m working on is healing my Body and manifesting my desires and that includes dealing with illness and aging that are manifested by the Body. While there are countless forms of disease, there is only one underlying cause, and that is denial. Denial, the denied energy (reversed polarity) from all parts of the self is what causes the disease and aging. Although it’s not obvious, it’s the unseen role of denial that is the root of our beliefs and judgments, and I’ve found that one of the biggest limitations and judgments on our Being is our social and personal definitions of who and what we are. If you make a list of all your negative “I am” faults, you will have a record of all your limiting beliefs and judgments. Some of my limiting “I am” beliefs and judgments are:

I am getting old because:
I’m not as strong as I once was
I’m not as energetic as I once was
I am getting white hair
I am losing my hearing
I am losing my eyesight
I am feeling pain in my bones
I am feeling pain in my muscles

While I have some knowledge, insights and understandings into the issues in my life from my past emotional healing experiences, I still don’t have the understandings I need to solve this current illness and aging issue with my Body. I have yet to apply my knowledge and experience it in a real life situation, in the “now” or present moment, to see if what I think I know, really works.

The cause of all pain and suffering is denial.

Says 26 – The power of labels and our core “I am” beliefs

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I’m in a Facebook group where I’ve been having an exchange with a man that admits he is gay. As he defended his belief of his gender preference, I realized that he was no different than a person saying they were an alcoholic or a drug addict. While the man said, “I am gay” he totally missed the fact that he is a Spiritual Being having a physical experience which happens to be being in a sexual relationship with a man, which is labeled by society as the person being gay. Being gay is what he is experiencing; it is not what he is… BIG difference.

I also realized that any mental, emotional or physical affliction is the same as an addiction in that both carry the denied underlying causes related to their physical experiences. If people allow themselves to be identified by the LABELES that their Doctor, or society puts on them, then they will have resigned themselves to be defined by those limiting and crippling beliefs. They will unconsciously will live their lives in pain and misery until such time that they choose to let go of their label belief and decide to find the hidden cause, the unseen role of denial underpinning their experience.

Our fears are connected to our “I AM” core beliefs that limit us from being who we really are. Our fears are not bad or evil, but they have their origins rooted in real life traumatic unloving experiences were we fragmented a piece of our Essence out of our Being. While we are mentally unaware of the fragments that have been denied, we are aware of their presence by their magnetic draw to be accepted, yet we still deny them, or rather, deny dealing with the original cause that created the fragmentation and resultant programs and beliefs. It’s a double blind situation as we are unaware of what we are doing and what we need to do to resolve and heal the situation and therefore we ignorantly believe our denials as being the truth and the truth as being our denials.

The same goes for other beliefs like, I am not free, I am poor, homeless, unhappy, depressed, etc. All these are limiting “I AM” beliefs and as such, are locked into the CORE of our psyche, our BEING. Until they are cleared and released, it’s impossible to become our true “I AM” presence as these beliefs, and the denied feelings and emotions behind the experiences that led to these beliefs, are overriding our true essence and power.

Affirmations like, “I am happy, I am abundant. I am free,” etc., are just a forms of denial and role-playing that only serve to deepen the belief. As an example, simply saying “I am happy” when one is actually feeling sad is in blatant denial of our true feelings and emotions.

 

Says 25 – Distilled water and the Heart, circulatory system & blood

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Today I bought some steam distilled water(aka Rain water) as a form of cleanse as I feel that is what the body needs or rather, what the blood needs to help process the nutrients it needs to nourish the body and eliminate the wastes. Rainwater is free of any chemicals and as such, it doesn’t add toxins to the Body that the Body then needs to get rid of.

The blood is part of an organ, our Heart and circulatory system whose job it is, is to provide life giving sustenance to the cells in our Body and to also filter and remove waste products. Bloor carries oxygen from the lungs and the digested food from our stomach and small intestine along with all the chemicals to all the other organs of our Body and as I mentioned remove any wasted produced by these organs. I don’t know how long I’ll be doing this, as right now I’m still drinking two cups of coffee a day as well as a couple cups of green tea. I’ll just monitor myself to see what I notice.

Says 24 – Dream of shit and litter and putting people in their right place.

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2012 March 10, I was at, what once was, a beautiful  tropical resort but recently the people that were in charge of maintenance had walked off the job. They refused to clean up the mess made by the visitors and what was once a beautiful resort was now turning into a toxic wasteland. The visitors at the resort were not only deliberately littering and trashing things, but they were also urinating and defecating on toilets, floors, or anywhere they pleased. To top it off, the water had been turned off because of vandalism and plugged toilets. It had gotten so bad that you had to be careful where you walked and even the beach and water was disgusting and unsafe. Visitors were disgusted that the toilets were not cleaned and plugged and some went to the outside dug toilets but found that they were also filthy. In desperation, some of the cleaners did their business on the grounds and tried to bury it as best they could.No one seemed to know what to do and how to clean up the place.

I talked to the clean up people and showed them what they could do t fix the problem and those that were interested followed my instructions and fixed some of the plumbing and dug new latrines and filled in the old ones. The litterbugs and those that didn’t care still littered and did their business where ever they wanted, even on, instead of in the working and clean toilets.

Finally, I had enough of their antics and I had them removed to their own remote island where they could do what they wanted. They complained to me that I wasn’t treating them fairly, or said that they were sorry and they would change if I just let them come back. I said, “No, there is a right place and time for everyone and you are in yours until you learn to clean up after your selves and your surroundings. You will live by your choices.”

I woke up.

Says 23 – Finally finished editing book 2 and 3 intro’s

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2012 March 05 Today I think I’ve finalized my introductions to books 2 and 3. I hummed and hawed, postponed and labored for years in trying not to repeat myself in my introductions, and to make each book a standalone read like my first book. This obsession also contributed to my having what is commonly known as writers block. It finally dawned on me that I’ve deliberately written a trilogy, and so it stands to reason that some parts of the introduction need to be repeated so that the reader will know what is going on, and for the book makes sense.

I also transferred the text to my MS-Word documents and then did some re-editing to get them to fit into the page format that I had previously set up, as I didn’t want to go through that process again as it’s been a few years and I’ve forgotten how I did it. I only know that I had a hard time setting it up in the first place.

Says 22 – Space (Ether /Aether) and the Elements

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2012 Feb 25, I remember my high school physics teacher talking about the airplane and how it is able to fly because it is using the movement of air to suspend itself. I never said anything at the time for fear of sounding stupid, but my question I had was, “If the air is holding the plane up, what is holding the air up? What is holding up all the molecules of Hydrogen, oxygen, carbon dioxide and all the other elements in what we commonly call air?  What’s holding up the water vapor and dust and even the odors we smell?

I think/feel that even though we have been told by science that space is nothing, a vacuum, I think that it has substance and some form of energy that science isn’t telling us. I’m not only talking about what is termed as outer space, but also the space that is found between all things, including the space in what we deem as being physically solid and that science now says is actually 99% made up of space, with only 1% actually being what we would call solid.

Air, water and Earth are made up of molecules occupying space. The only difference between them is that water is denser than air, and earth, (soil, and rocks) is denser than water. Humm? So what is fire and where does it fit in all this? The elements that create physical reality are Earth, Water, Air, Fire and space/time. Humm, The energy of fire affects changes in the elements of earth, air and water, but I don’t see how it affects Space (Ether -Aether)/ time.

 

I just remembered that the same science teacher had a few ideas and experiments that the class thought weird. One that is relative to this thought process is the use of a Bell jar, in which he had four fan like blades supported on a vertical shaft. One side of the blade was painted black and the other side white. The bell jar was placed near the window in direct sunlight, and nothing happened. He then evacuated the bell jar, removing all the air and then placed it in the same position. The blades now spun wildly on their axis. Solar power, way back in the early 1960’s.

The thing that I find curious is why science is intentionally misleading us with the propaganda that space is a vacuum. I can see how rockets are used to push off from the Earth and then off the air to enable them to put the space vehicles in orbit. What I question is that when they are sending these vehicles into deep space probe missions, like to the moon, mars and beyond, how do these rockets work if there is nothing for the escaping rocket gases to push on.. Dah? It doesn’t make any sense. They are not telling us the whole truth.

Says 19 – Hearing loss in left ear and visit to the Doctor

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2012 Feb 24 Friday. Back on Feb 03 Says 05  I got an ear infection and I’ve been treating it with olive oil and inserting a small wad of cotton batten to keep the oil in place.  A couple of weeks ago I asked my guides if I needed to go see the Doctor to have my left ear flushed out, and I got the answer, “No.”

My hearing was getting better, but then took a turn last weekend and since then it hasn’t gotten any better and so yesterday, I asked my guides again and I got the answer, “Yes.” I was confused, but I called the Doctor this morning and to my surprise, I got an appointment for 10:30 this morning.

I went for my appointment and before the Doctor examined my ear, I removed the cotton batten wad. He looked in my ear and said there was something stuck in my ear. My first thought (fear) was an insect as what else could it be. He got out his bag of tools and with a tweezer like instrument; he pulled out a wad of cotton batten. I was surprised, but immediately realized it was the cotton batten wad that I thought had fallen out of my ear during my sleep, a week ago. When I woke up, it wasn’t in my ear and I couldn’t find it in my bed so I assumed that it had fallen out and dropped down behind the bed.

The Doc then flushed my right ear and removed a little bit of wax. I asked him if he was going to flush my left ear and he said it was fine, there was no wax in it. I then asked him why I still couldn’t hear with my left ear and he said that the cotton batten wad had been pushed against my ear drum and that it would take a couple of days for things to right themselves. I felt like a dummy, but that also explains why my guides had changed their answer.

Says 18 – Hearing strange clicking sounds

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2012 Feb 23 I’ve been hearing a series of clicking sounds coming from the outside wall of my room.  The sound seems to be coming from near the window or the heat register directly under the window. It’s a series of 4 or 5 clicks and then it stops and a few seconds or minutes later, it repeats the sequence. I thought it might be the heat register, but the furnace isn’t on, so that eliminates that idea. I’ve gone to the area where I think the sounds are coming from and either there is no sound, or if there is, it now appears to be coming from my bed.

This has been going on and off for the past couple of weeks and to add to the confusion, it’s not constant as I haven’t heard it for the past hour. It’s also either 4 or 5 clicks, never more, never less and that is unusual also. I’m at a loss to explain what is physically causing it, so my next thought is that it is being caused by something or someone that is not in the physical.  My first thought was that it was an alien, an ET’s but I haven’t investigated that possibly yet as I have been trying to focus on editing the intros to my books.

Says 17 – Past memories of dying

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2012 Feb 19 12:30 am Sunday, I just had a memory flashback of not wanting to die and how panicked my Mind was. It was in morbid terror, not wanting to die.  I don’t know where this feeling and image came from as I was just drifting off to sleep when I was startled by it.

A few seconds later I had flashed back to my childhood when my mother tried to drown me and how I felt free when my Spirit was out of my Body,  Hovering above my Body that lay still and motionless in a small bathtub, relieved that it (the hate) was finally over and that now I could have peace.

Then I flashed back to the night I was conceived and again the feelings of not wanting to be here, as there was no love.  Although they were married, my father was basically raping my mother. But this feeling of wanting to leave feels different than the previous one. It’s more like Heart feeling he didn’t want to be here as it was not the love and life he desired, or expected.

Humm, this is getting complicated.

Says 15 – Stopping the cycle of death and reincarnation

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February 18 7:15 AM So in order to stop the cycle of death and reincarnation, and to bring all the presently untapped physical senses into reality, Spirit (Mind) has to begin to not only accept what the Body, Will and Heart are feeling in the present moment, but to also feel what happened to them  in the past. Spirit needs to go where it has never gone before and experience what it thinks will kill it, to a place where Will/Body were abandoned and left to die. It’s Body (form) that holds the most denials as even the Will gradually has to leave it, not that she wanted to, but she had no choice.

Feb 18 1:10 PM Not that all of Heart left after Spirit left, as only the part of Heart that is Spirit polarized left, leaving the Will polarized part of Heart to die along with Body and Will. I just felt the heartbreak of both Spirit polarity Heart in having to leave the Body/Will, and the Will polarity of itself and how he felt he had no choice, and how Will polarity Heart, felt broken, betrayed, alone and a host of other feelings and emotions. Will polarity Heart was also trapped in a dying Body and quickly losing consciousness, meaning that the physical heart and circulatory system and blood were also dying, and in the process, cutting off possibility of physical life from the rest of the Body.

This is horrible! What a fucking heartbreaking waste!  I don’t know what else I can call it as there are just too many feelings and words to describe what I just felt. It’s all based on imprinting that goes back to the very beginning, to original Cause.

Before you can know what life is, you need to know what death is.

To know what love is, you need to know what is not love.

If any part of us is in denial of another part of ourselves, that part being denied is receiving death.  So how can we call what we are experiencing life, when a part of us is dying? Cutting off parts of us that are dying only means that we are losing more consciousness and essence. Eventually Spirit, that is electric in nature, also dies because without the Wills Magnetic essence there is no longer the compliment of forces necessary for Spirit/Will to co-exist. Without the Yin, there is no Yang.

Says 14 – Body carrying the (LOAD = Lies, Omission, Avoidance, Denial)

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February 18 6:25 AM I was thinking about death and how Spirit (Mind) has never experienced what our Body and Will have experienced. When a person dies, it’s the Spirit (life force) that leaves first, and then, within a few seconds, Heart (represented by our physical heart) stops and with that, there is no longer any flow of the life force to nourish the Body.

The Will, being magnetic in nature, doesn’t leave the Body immediately, nor does she want to as life is what she desires, but without Spirit presence, to animate Body with life, the Body cannot exist in the form it had. Without Spirit, the Will is slowly forced to leave the Body, and as she leaves, the parts of the Body begin to return to the original essence and elements that it was made from. One thing I need to mention is that just because Spirit and Heart have left the Body/Will, that doesn’t mean that the Body’s  and Will’s ability to feel and sense what is going on has stopped, as only Body’s ability to move and respond has ceased to function. It can still feel pain in all those parts that still have Will presence, it just can’t move and respond to them.

It’s like a person that is in a coma and while they are unable to communicate, they are totally aware of what is going on, they just can’t move their eyes, speak, or even move their finger to show they are alive and aware of their surroundings and the physical and emotional pain they are in. A person in a coma still has some part of their Spirit essence in their Body as it hasn’t totally decided to leave, yet. It has lifted most of it’s essence and consciousness, except for what is needed to keep the body/Will alive.  Heart presence is still in the Body to maintain the flow of life essence. Left unattended, the person would be unable to feed or care for themselves and unless Spirit chose to return, a slow and agonizing dying process would follow until such time that Spirit did leave and Body/Will would feel abandoned, unloved, rejected, and heartbroken.

I just felt and realized that while Spirit has never experienced what Body and Will have, that there is a part of Heart essence that has remained and experienced an aspect of dying. Although this part of Heart has momentarily remained, it has only experienced Spirit leaving and only the very beginning of the emotional and physical pain that the Will and Body was feeling, as when it felt its terror of death, it was quick to follow Spirit. Spirits terror is to experience dying and death, as life is what it is, and Heart has similar issues. When Spirit (Mind) says that death is nothing, it is only nothing to Spirit because Spirit has never experienced it, so there was NO THING to experience.

Humm? This relates back to the beginning of how Spirit is in terror of losing any part of the Body’s FULL sensations, especially sight, and sound, as then it is in the dark, the unknown, and left to the remaining senses, of touch, taste and smell, feeling crippled and powerless.

Loss of the physical senses and the body’s physical abilities of its youth terrify the Spirit and is in part, the cause of aging, as Spirit tries to deny what has happened to Body as a result of the experiences it, and the Will have had to endure without the acceptance and help from Spirit. All the times when Spirit/Will/Body/Heart were confronted with traumatic experiences, Spirit did what it thought it needed to do in order to survive, by cutting off and denying the parts of itself, it’s Will, (feelings and emotions) as well as Body sensations.  It’s all these denials, (denied reversed energy) that the body is forced to hold and carry. It’s the LOAD (Lies, Omission, Avoidance, Denial)  that gradually weighs down the Body, causing it to move and react slower and not heal like it once did , and to also diminish its senses.  That’s when Spirit begins to become aware of the things it doesn’t like about the Body, which only adds to the denials that the Body is forced to hold, thus accelerating the process of illness and aging.

Note: In looking for an autopsy picture to use on my blog post I happened upon this picture and then followed it to the main website.  If you want to see and feel what a medical team does to a Body that is still alive, but can’t move, then visit this site.

I must warn you, the pictures are very graphic and disturbing.

Says 13 – The Body and its five senses

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2012 Feb 17 The Bodies sensations of sight, sound, taste, touch and smell are very much like the Will, in that they can differentiate between what is pleasant and what is not pleasant, loving and unloving. This is most evident with the senses of taste, touch and smell, as the Mind has formed judgments that override the input of sight and sound, with sight being the most overridden, as in the expression, “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” This overriding of our Will, and Body is what is learned through our experiences.

Before I wrote the above paragraph, I was thinking of my hearing problem, and how I had difficulty hearing my brother last night when he came to visit me. I thought how strange and empty my world would be without sound and the ability to hear all the sounds I presently hear. I then closed my eyes and thought of all the objects, shapes, colors that would disappear if I also lost my sight, and how helpless I would be trying to make our my around and function.

All five of our senses have special properties that allow us to experience reality in different ways, and to lose even one would have a profound effect on our lives. For me, the senses I most value, in order of importance would be sight, sound, touch, taste, and smell. I feel there are even more physical senses that we possess, it’s just that we don’t know how, or we can’t use them at the present moment. I feel they are much like how we can use technology to expand our awareness, but we would not need technology to experience them, as we would be able to have these abilities naturally.

Says 12 – Another Apple fast/cleanse

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2012 Feb 15, Today I started my three day Apple fast / cleanse  and for some reason it’s really affecting me quickly. Usually my Body doesn’t start to react until the second day, but today I have a dull headache and I’ve had three, one-hour catnaps today. That may also be due to the fact that I have very little to eat after breakfast yesterday. I also feel cold and my bones and my muscles are aching. During my last catnap I was feeling the heartbreak of lost innocence and the following words came to me.

                                                 

 Lost innocence: 

When you realize that telling the truth is not acceptable, but telling a lie is.

When you become ashamed of your body, and how you look.

Says 11 – Editing my Books introduction

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 2012 Feb 13 Monday 11:00 am Yesterday I began gathering the bits and pieces of my introduction to books  2 and 3 that I’ve revised the number of times over the past three years.  The trouble I’ve had is that because my originally manuscript was never published, and because it was quite long, as it also contained an appendix of the tools I use on my journey, I decided to divide it and create two books.  I removed the appendix (no pun intended) and expanded it. This book then became my first self-published eBook. At that time, instead of finishing and publishing the remaining manuscript, I decided to create a third that was directly related to the other two.

So then I was working on a trilogy which means that there will be some points in the introduction that need to be repeated in each book, especially if the books are not read in the order they are published, so that the reader has an idea of what the book is about. Creating these separate yet common introductions is where I’ve been getting hung up.

Today I feel comfortable that I’ve got book3 sorted out, at least as far as the main content of the introduction goes, but I still have book 2 to sort out. Once that’s finished, I can begin in earnest to finalize both books and get them self-published as eBooks. After that I want to look at getting them published as paperbacks.  If you are interested in my free published ebook, and my pre-published versions of ebook  2 and 3 you can download them from my website at shenreed.com 

Says 10 – Medical & Scientific community and the Body

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Feb 05  Sunday 9:03 am The medical and scientific community have found the ways and means to fix body parts that are no longer functioning with their healthy youthfulness.  The disease and pain that the  Body is holding is treated  with the use of drugs, and when that doesn’t work, it’s surgery, with physicians doing anything from heart to cosmetic surgery, including artificial replacements and organ transplants. All these are ways of extending life by giving the Mind, the Body it wants, while allowing the Mind to continue to deny the  Will and Body, with the Body being the one holding the results of the Minds denials.

 Eventually I see the medical and scientific community coming to a point where they can create an artificial body and just implant the Mind into it, much like an Android, part flesh, part robot creating a society  that has become cold and heartless like the Borg’s on the TV series Star Trek.

11:00 am The mind also uses the body to do things so that it can be distracted from what the Will, (feelings and emotions) is bringing up that it doesn’t want to deal with. In the process, the Body is also forced (be default) to hold the unloving light that Spirit (Mind) is directing at the Will through its denials. Thoughts are energy as are feelings and emotions, and if they are not expressed and released, but denied, they have nowhere to go but back on to the Will and then stored in the Body.

Healing the Body is just as difficult, if not even more so than healing the Will, (Feelings and emotions)  as the Body holds both the denials of the Spirit and Will. It’s like the Body is a slave in many ways, and is dictated to by the Mind.

One cause of disease – many forms.

Says 09 – My Body is trying to tell me something!

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2012 Feb 05 Sunday 7:45 am I’m not feeling well. I have a cold, stuffy nose, sore throat, earache and my hearing is partially blocked in my left ear. I also feel sick to my stomach, tired, exhausted and weak. As I was feeling all these things in my body, I also felt how my Mind does not like what it feels. It wants the body to be fine, healthy, active, useful, and is disappointed with the Body when it can’t do what the Mind wants it to do. The Minds rejection of the Body is similar to its rejection of the Will (intuition, feelings and emotions) when it doesn’t like what the Will is feeling and so it rejects and denies her.

This is why there is an alliance between the Will and Body as the Body and Will both feel things and sensations. When the feelings and sensations are pleasant, the Mind (Spirit) has acceptance for them, but when they are not pleasant or don’t agree with what the Mind desires, or expects, the Mind rejects and denies them. When the Mind (Spirit) rejects the Will or Body, what they receive is not Spirits light, but either a mix of light and denial, or total rejection and denial. Denial is nothing, is death. So when the Mind does not like what it feels from the Will/Body polarity it is, by its non-acceptance, giving them denial and death to hold in their energy field.

The more the Mind denies, the more the Body becomes sick and ages and the more numb the Mind feels, thinking that numb is better than the unpleasantness it would feel if it accepted what the Body and Will was telling it. The Body gets sick and ages as it is not only holding the Minds denial energy of the Body, but also the Minds denial energy of the Will, as this energy has no place else to go, as the Mind will not accept it and allow it to be expressed (released). Showing illness and aging is also the Bodies way of showing the Mind what it is being forced to hold by the Minds denials and the more the mine hates and denies what the Body reflects, the more is being shown.

What used to give the Mind pleasure was the body sensations of sight, sound, taste, smell, and touch along with an adrenaline rush and sexual orgasm. But with all the repeated denials through time this has since accounted for the Body’s diminished ability to respond in the same manner it did when it was younger, and holding less denial. All of the body’s ability to provide pleasure for the Mind have gradually diminished. It can’t see, hear, taste or touch like it used to and the Body is not as agile and quick so it can’t do the things that used to give it an adrenaline rush, and the sexual drive of youth and orgasm has also diminished. All these negative issues also leave the Body with Minds judgments on the Body of what’s the use. I’m getting old. I’m no good, useless. I’m not wanted, not desired, and the list goes on and on. These are similar judgments that the Mind has given the Will that is also denied and rejected.

So how do I heal this?

  • Do I need to feel everything that the body is holding and feeling?
  • Do I need to find a release to judgments the mind has on the Body?
  • Do I need to go back in time to find the original cause?

I’ve gone blank

I don’t feel that it’s only acknowledging what the body is feeling now, but also going back like I did/do with the Will to find the original cause.

Says 08 – Russia, China veto UN Security Council Syria resolution

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It’s interesting that the US is pressing the UN for a regime change in Syria, stating that the current political system is corrupt and limiting civil liberty and freedom. It’s the same rhetoric that the US used against Egypt and Libya to de-stabilize the region and look at what is happening in those countries now. Yesterday, Russia and China both voted to veto any UN resolution move against Syria, thus thwarting US efforts to undermine yet another Middle East Arab nation.

Of course, the US is intentionally blind to the fact that they are doing the same thing to their very own citizens. While they are not using military force, (yet) the groundwork is in place. Meanwhile the US has silently and covertly legislated the end to civil liberties and most US citizens are still oblivious to the fact that they no longer have the freedom they once had. I’m also sure that if other members of the UN demanded that the US stop its current practice of undermining civil liberty and freedom, that those in power would reject any such motion as meddling in their internal affairs, and would veto any attempt of the UN to interfere with what the government has planned. It’s the classic hypocritical golden rule of “do as I say, not as I do.”

The USA took Afghanistan and Iraq by force under bogus claims of 911 terrorism and weapons of mass destruction. Now that they have established an “unopposed” foothold in the Middle East, they are putting plan B into action by de-stabilizing the region. This is not a new plan as they have been planting the seeds, and the ways and means to do this over the past few decades. The old adage “United we stand, divided we fall,” is what they are using to gain control of the oil rich Middle East.

That brings me back to Syria. With Russia and Chine both supporting the present Syrian government, I don’t think that Israel will risk attacking Syria as a way to get to Iran because that would bring the military forces of Russia and China into the equation and that is not something that Israel and the US are looking for. As long as they can fight and over-power stone throwing civilians and poorly armed so-called rebels, they are happy to be the bully and run rough shod over whoever they are attacking.

Says 07 – Israel getting ready to attack Iran.

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For the past couple of months I’ve had the feeling that Israel and the USA are getting ready to invade Iran. The present US political push to remove the Bashar al-Asad’s government from power in Syria  would open the door to civil chaos and unrest like it did in Egypt and  Libya. It would be a catalyst for Israel to get involved in yet another conflict, not with Syria, per say, as that would only be a pretence, but with Iran, that has been a long-standing thorn in the side of Israel.

The slightest act, or perceived act of aggression from Syria,  toward Israel would be seen as an act of terrorism (by the USA and Israel) that would give  Israel the green light and so-called “grounds”  to invade Syria,  the same way it ruthlessly invaded Lebanon back in 2006/2007  

Once Israel invades Syria, it’s only a short hop across Iraq (US controlled) to the borders of Iran. While Israel would focus on a Northern push against Iran, the Americans would rattle their sabers in the Persian Gulf, as well as in Afghanistan, thus executing a three-pronged attack upon Iran and if, not if, but when, either Israel, or the US decides to launch an attack on Iran, all hell will break loose.

US Dept of State facts and figures on Syria   Read between the lines…  to find the truth that is hidden

Says 06 – Social Rage and Hatred

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2012 Feb 03

For the past few days, I’ve been getting vivid images of rage and hatred, along with torture and murder, flashing through my mind.  Sometimes they were attacks on innocent victims, but mostly it was in retaliation to being attacked. I know they are not my thoughts, but that of society (mass consciousness) in general, as I feel a lot of people are getting fed up with the aspects of society that don’t care about other people or the planet.  The have’s, that don’t care about anything but themselves. I feel that it won’t take much to send these people over the edge and make the French revolution look like Mary Poppins.